BoYaN RoX

New skin! =)

2005-11-22T00:04:00.000-08:00

First of all,
i'd like to thank LADY'AI for this skin.
wee. its really beautiful.
thanks sis fer ur very creative work.
lube ya <3
though ive not edited dat much,
be patient.. i will when i free..

No school fer today n i felt so 'mendak' in the early morning.
So i woke my sis up and called nana..
asked them to accompany me to jln raya.. haha
so bored maahh.. so yada yada yada..
had a great time wif my very lovely sisters.
went to azlin's.. then mr ezzad's.. then huda's..
then ridzuan's.. then went home.. lol.
short and sweet =))
thanks fer the day darls..
to c more pic,go n take a look at my friendster.. hiak hiak..

aica sent me pics when we had a sleep-over at her house..
and ya..
i kept laughing!
n guess wat?
the bite turns to b worse!!
take a look at it!

can c dat? ya,dats my hand.
thanks to zainab fer dat very nice bite!
haha. but i wont get angry to her la.
bcoz its fun! haha..
'gurau-gurauan mnjadikan hubungan semakin rapat'.

haha.. takpe.. takpe..
lol..
oklor.. till then..
need to sleep early..
coz tomorrow morning got 3 interview for work..
just try my luck mah..
with who??
dat jnab again..
lol..

ok dearies.. sweet dreams.. tata.. =))

Childhood frens <3

2005-11-20T11:35:00.000-08:00

Can read the tittle for dis post??

yeah. dats it!! LOL. ok ok lame.
so yah. based on dat topic,
there must b story regarding it.

yesterday was fun.
all after me n jnab jln raya wif our classmates.
and suddenly..
we went off..
without saying 'BYE' or 'TATA' to them.
very bad gals i must say! haha

left me and jnab.
think.. think.. think about where to go..
home? nah.. its only 4pm..
so ive decided sumthing and she just agreed!

so yada yada yada..
had a great 'date' with jnab..
haha.. only me and her jln raya..
so funny aint it?
ya,ITS ONLY THE TWO OF US.
though we used to have some misunderstanding last time.
but let bygones b bygones.
great friend remains. hehe =)

go jln jln..
then we were so excited on our way to sumone's house.
ya. sumone who used to b ssooo close to us.
but dat idiot bus met wif an accident and we were late!
damn it.

but rileks. we're cool.
AICA!! Finally reached petir LRT station and met her.
so the 3 of us.. walked together..
wif jnab hugged each other's shoulder with only smiles on our lip..
walk walk walk..
to dat sumbody's house..

FINALLY! we reached there..
saw dat 'HER' and we screamed out loud!
HAFIZAH LASIMAN!!!
finally we met her.
and old frens met.
stories-all-the-way.

till it was almost 10.30pm..
aica suggested to have a sleep-over at her house.
sadly fiza couldnt join us.
end up..
me and jnab again!
weee weee..

jnab wif her ketiak cancer..
me wif my kepala busuk..
and aica wif her laughing machine.

haha. laugh.. stories..
and fiza called my hp and me 'bkk speaker'.
so the 4 of us talked and ya,GOSSIPS.
haha. they never change at all. cuties! =))

sorry jnab cause me and aica just couldnt
stop ourself from teasing u.
till she BITE my hand with her teeth!!
ouuhhh... lebam siotz. haha

still we had fun together..
next time is fiza's house otey..

how i wish i could turn back the time.
so as we could b little kiddos again.
and spent our school days with
naughty and bad attitude.
lol.

till then..
hope to meet u guys soon.
love them so muchie.
and aica,tolak pics kat aku plz..
cayang ko suara rox!

love u guys.
thankies.

Last day of school..

2005-11-18T09:48:00.000-08:00

FINALLY.
Today is the last day of school 2005.
After almost 10 years in dat school.
With the same uniform and place.
Made me love the school and the people so much.
Although sumtimes its kinda 'makan hati'
still its the best home for me.
The moments when i'd stepped in there,
it had made my life the special one.
thanks school.

not much to say about today.
only dat we went to our new class.
one student has to retain but he decided to leave the school.
i pity him so much because all this while,
ive been helping him so much and quite close to him.
coz all of the boys just love to bully him.
bad bad bad! =(

Congrats to those who has been promoted or advanced to the higher level nextyr.
hope they will do much better than these past years.
And for those has been retained,U MUST TRY AGAIN.
Dont ever2 give up coz age doesnt seem to b the matter.
All the best for all.

and fer me,
im going to struggle myself for next year.
english.MALAY.pure geo.COMBINED SCI.e maths.ARABIC.irk
dats the only subjects which im gonna take fer next yr's o level.
as fer my classmates,they want to have additional subjects..
but its only for class test.
they want to take tasawwuf and usul fiqh.

ya. i noe its gonna b problem to the new students.
esp imanites.
coz their arabic language are just so 'oh hell'.
haha. dats wat they told me.
but im very sure dat i can help u all.
and as fer my sis,i really hope dat she can teach me MATHS very well.
hate her for getting A1 for every maths paper. CELAKA. lol.
and fer rizal,i really hope dat he can teach me PHYSICS very well.
coz i will always get one digit num fer dat paper. kuang3.

no matter wat it is.
i hope dat everything will do just as fine.
playing no more.
study hard,here i come.

here are some pics taken just now with my juniors.
hahaks.
they are just so in love with camera.
so enjoys. =))

act mcm kena denda. hahaks.

im gonna miss those students.

Slaking at the staricase.

Mcm2 ajela bdk2 bertuah nie.. hehe.

oh well. they are so in love wif the camera.

=))

'setelah hampir rebah,dipukul badai kemajuan'

-part of M.A.I.A.I song

la la la.. =))

2005-11-17T22:34:00.000-08:00

The first sentence dat Mr Esmadi said to my father was:
'Oh Luklu.. She's my beloved daughter..'

heehee. so sweet of him =))

Results are just so sucks but wateva it is,im happy coz i will take my o level next year esp with some of my beloved imanites. my sis? yah. she's joining me taking o level next year. so we betta study hard together and enjoy our victory together. haha. *cam btol* yaa.. IM ready..! ready fer everything. ready fer 2006 to come coz i have so many dreams to achieve! ya ya ya.

and im ready to attend school nextweek. extra class for o level 2006 starts next week. wow. so fast liox. no break at all but dis is wat ive actually promised the school. 'We give u an oppurtunity so u better attend and join the activities provided'.

and im ready to have fun at Port Dickson next month. esp when i got to noe dat qurra will join me too! yayness! its great to b the aunty and uncle's darling ya dear? hehe. its gonna b fun n pics ok darls! =))

School had spring cleaning just now and our class was selected to clean up the sec 4 ihsan class. ssshzzz.. so we got 2 classes to clean up cleanly and perfectly. so tired to the max lor. for wat the jins said 'this school is so dirty'. hax. so we better clean up the places so as the jins wont come back and disturb the students again. *winks*

Hur Zaimah is going to Cairo today. Tot of sending her to the airport but her flight at as early 4 am. shezzz. gonna miss her lots. she's gonna b there for hari raya with her dad who studies there for about 4 years. ive listed down sumthing for her to buy. ofcourse,for me =)) hehe. anyways,just wish her slmt pergi dan slmt pulang.. miss n love her lots..

After school just now,i went to Toa Payoh with Na,No and Ira. Nana and nur were searching fer new phone and they kept asking 'uncle.. may i noe how much is this' or 'uncle,how much will i get if i sell dis hp?'. bla bla bla. Ira just accompanied me to spectacle shops coz ive planned to put on new frameless spec nextyr. so yada yada yada. my leg was so tiring. all thanks to the gals! celaka... *lol*

Ive bought one new perfume. and i just love it alot.
sadrina,now i smell like u!

hehe =))

new year to come maahh

2005-11-16T22:51:00.000-08:00

The school had engaged the service of IDEA 21 to conduct the 'grooming and social etiquette workshop' just now. Its worth it although it was needed to pay $10 for every student.

Thanks to Stephanie who had been the bestest speaker and i just couldnt stop myself from laughing out loud with all her craps. Shes damn beautiful i must say! plus with dat friendly and cute side of her really made me so attracted to every words she said. =))

So yah. 3 hours of workshop was great. A fun and practical course,the grooming workshop included topics like table etiquette,how to dress up neatly,etc,which will help to strengthen my image and Self-Confidence. Thanks again to dat preety stewardess =))

While i was having dis workshop prog,sumone did smsed me. A gal who had been my very great bestfriend in primary school life. The sms wasnt meant to b friendly type as wat i tot it would be but it was a 'war'. yerps,there was some misunderstanding btwn us and she talked very rudely without thinking about wat she had really say. Ya. i was hurt by all her words coz it was all about his guy. excuse me. it was so childish ya. fighting each other just bcoz of a guy. it was a long story but nah,its too personal to b posted here. as fer me 'her words didnt hurt me dat much coz i understand'. People tend to say anything without thinking if he or she turns to b so angry. as fer her case,i understand her JEALOUS attitude very much but trust me,its not my fault at all. He's not my friend and i dun think so u can scold me or watsoeva just bcoz of a small matter. wateva it is,i understand her. so forgive and forget it then. hope they will settle it by themself and peace =))

Mr edward is replacing my form teacher's place for this week because she takes MC for a week. So yada yada yada. Mr edward is now incharge for my class. He briefed everything about nxt yr's plan.

n guess wat? alhamdulillah,AKU NAIK SEC 5!! only one is stayback and we r so sad to let one of student leaves us. wateva it is,i just wish him all the best. 20 students for nextyr. =(

mr edward did told us dat 10 students from imanites will join my class next year. meaning dat the selected imanites(sec 3 iman students who are in express stream) will sit as a class with us. kelakar kan? sec 3 tros jump to sec 5.. haha.. terlebih pandai per.. *kuang3*..camne la nanti lau adik aku satu klas ngn aku n amek o level sesame eh? konpem best.. hehehe..

Talking about next year,im becoming SO SO SO exciting! haha. Ive planned to close dis blog,msn and friendster by the end of this year. i think theres no need for me to continue bcoz of some reasons. the important one is dat,i want to b secretive. can i? can i? hehe. and yerps,i wanna change to new hp nom too. i wan to b low-profile sikit. ble tk? hehe. *bole gitu* but i still regard 'writting in blog' is my great best friend because i talk and write more in english and it really helps me to improve my language. erm,maybe i can use my own blog with only some trusted people to noe. wateva it is,its just a planning.

For all irsyadians,
tomorrow will b the release of report books.
and all the best for all.
tomorrow my parents will come down to school
and im so scared waiting fer tomorrow to come.

Mum and dad,
i promise dat u two wont b called again in future.

*mcm betol jek luk nie..* =))

Praying hard..

2005-11-15T22:09:00.000-08:00

I love kids! Yes. I really do. Their cuteness bring much happiness to me. Thats wat my day for today. Need to take care of the primary one to three students and gave them a short 'story telling'. Ya,its kinda tiring to look after kids. Their stubborness and loudness can make me turn to b so 'RIMAS'. Wateva they are,they still respect the elders by listening to every instructions. and noe wat? they are so brilliant! they can give ans in just one second. kiddos are just cute! =)

I enjoyed my day alone because i had finished my job at as early 10.30am while the others finished at almost 3pm. haha =p in my own free time,i did find sumthing dat entertained me. So yerps. I had a loonnngg talk with Ustaz Badrul. He told me about his experience in life and he said to me 'dun waste ur time' and he kept saying 'belajar itu indah..'. hehe. Cara dia berbahasa dlm bahasa indon btol2 buat kata2 dia sejuk je bila didgr. Respect him lots. He didnt enjoy her teens life like we used to. neways,thanks to him and other teachers too for being so friendly to me and shared alot of story to me. Thankies. Luv ya all.

Besides dat,i had fun in playing games with some of the Sec 3 gals. All i need to do was JERIT2 with Mr Aziz from the first floor to the third floor. HAHAHA. really had fun esp with dat kecoh Mr Aziz and Cikgu Iskandar. Thanks again.

and again. besides dat,i had my own sweet time in sleeping at the aircon rooms with Mp3 ON and sms ON. haha. *langgar undang2 btol*.. BLA BLA BLA.. then got skin care prog by one of the indon lady also so yada yada yada. talked wif dat lady and yah,ive studied alot. thanks. hehe.

Thanks school for being so entertaining. HAHAHAHAH. Tomorrow gonna have another great programme again!! yippee!! Grooming and social etiquette workshop..

FINALLY. Theres a holiday for me dis coming december. My beloved auntie and uncle kept calling me said dat they had booked and paid for the ticket and all dat. So yada yada yada. Must follow maah and konpem fun punye. Thankies auntie n uncle. Best tau lau ade org syg kte.. btol tk? hehe.. So yah.. We'r going to Tiara beach at Port dickson.. YOoohhuu..

but the most interesting thing dat ive been CRAZY about is that.

MY RESULT.
Oh hell. Can i get to b promoted to sec 5 nxt yr?

My teacher called my parents just now and asked them to come down to school for parent meeting. Ya ya ya.

Im sick.
Sick when i noe dat 5 out of 21 students under 'stayback list'.
n im sick sgt.
when i got to noe dat i was one of them.
best kans??

ye. best sgt. buat aku gile.
but theres still a hope for me. *winks*
coz out from the 5 students, im the only one who passed english.
only dat i failed badly for 2 papers.
kuang3.

the result is out tomorrow..
lets pray hard fer it.

reason nye nape aku drop abes gini eh?? sbb..
aku takble cope and cover utk 6 subjects for o level subjects and chapters just after only a month rite after my major exam(STE) finished. seriously takble cope. seriously brain torture.

and seriously.

HAHAHA

IM CRAZY!!

SHUT UP...!

Respect is the word

2005-11-15T00:30:00.000-08:00

Specially thanked to..

Suhailah from Sec 5 o level

Shaidah from Sec 4 n level

Ummu Aiman from Sec 3 STE

and me,myself from Sec 4 STE

Although Suhailah and Shaidah have left the two of us for their major exams,really big thank to them for our hard work in 'khataming' quran for dis whole year. Finally,school had the majlis khatam quran just now with many interesting events. The best one was,'mkn berdulang ramai2'. Hehe. Really had fun with the quiz and all dat. Thanks asatizahs.

The Secondary School students wore baju raya today. Not becoz of celebrating hari raya but bcoz of the majlis. So my classmates planned to go jln raya to 3 of our teachers rite after school.

First house was our 'old teacher' who used to b our cute MATHS teacher. He's almost 80 yrs old but he still look healthy. Respect him lots =))

So yada yada yada.. went to Sengkang then to Queenstown.. REALLY HAD FUN =)) shared alot of things with the teachers and ya,we studied sumthing from their life.

Otw back home,sumone smsed me.. Said dat sumone has dissed me at my tagboard. v

So here is the reply for sumone who didnt use her own name..

To BLOG HOPPER..

HAI!! =))

Thanks fer those tags. So sweet of u for making me so surprise by dat advices and all dat. Well..

*ade ko nmpk aku motek ngn laki kai tudung per?*

*ade ko tanye ak bila tu smua?*

*ade ko tanye ak smpai skrg per aku ni mcm?*

*ade ko tanye ak diri ko sendiri yg ko ni sajak ke tk nk tegur org*

coz.. dgn cara ko tag.. ku konfem sgt.. yang ko nie..

*tak mungkin lebih baik dari aku*

*cara ko tegur bkn cara yg baik*

kerana pada pendapat aku.. lau ko nk tegur aku,ko g tgk diri ko dulu eh.. ko g tgk betol2 muka ko n diri ko pat cermin.. kalo ko rasa yg ko lebih baik dari aku n ko kai tudung pnjg n jaga tata tertib sbgai seorg islam,baru ko dtg n tegur aku nan cara baik. konpem ku respect abes ngn ko.

tapikan.. lau ko rasa yg ko ni da la tk kai tudung,abe takde keje lain slain nk kutuk org jek,hmm.. baik takya susah2 nk nasihatkan aku coz sepatotnye ko nasihatkan diri ko dulu..

btw.. ni blog aku. aku nye kenangan.. aku nye idop.. aku nye perasaan.. n ape yg ku citekan tu smua benda yg da lepas.. as wat i said 'im sorry if i happen to hurt anyone'. GET IT?? Gipon sejahat2 aku pat lua dulu pon,ku respect abes ngn ape yg aku akai. Lau ku kai tudung,ku respect abes. lau ko nmpk aku ngn laki peluk2 or cium2 smbil aku kai tudung,baru ko le dtg maki hamun aku agi k??

N btw.. ko ckp yg aku 'over amek gmba ngn laki'..? OVER? HELLO!! ko tgk gmba tu smua,ade ku sentuh laki per? ade ku peluk laki per? ade tk?

and errmm.. psl template aku nie.. aku da ckp siang2 per pat blog aku ni yg ni skin lama. aku kai sejap je sementara ku carik yg baru. so ku tk rasa uh ini benda menyusahkan idop ko..

n finally.. ko bebual da mcm step minah ngn aku tetiba sebut nama tuhan? HAHAHAHA. Sesuci nama tuhan sepatotnye digabungkan dgn kata yg baik atau teguran yg baik yer..

So mintak ampun dan maaf sekiranye ku de uat ko sakit ati pat sini.

As ape yg ku tulis kat first page aku:

'Welcome to my blog..The main purpose of doing this blog is for me to share anything about my life..And for me to pour out my feelings..My blog,my own say,my own dream..If u dont like it,please leave..Please respect it ok..U hate me?? I just cant be bothered..'

So respect is the word.

Ya, ko bole tegur aku. kte sesame manusia tapi mane respect ko?

aku respect lau ko tegur aku dgn cara yg baik sbb tu yg ku nk tau atas kelemahan aku.

SORRY AGAIN.

i dun wish to hurt anyone here.

Only dat im so sad to say dat..

'mcm ane org mlayu nk maju lau org melayu sendiri yg kutuk org mlayu'.

SORRY AGAIN.

Kalau tk suka,le ckp depan2 or le bebual private ngn aku lau ade benda yg ko tak satisfied. Insya allah,aku le brubah.. Smoga ko happy dgn kata2 ko tu..

*peace no war*.. dats my life. i dun wish to pick a fite with anyone or hurt anyone's feelings. Only dat people seem dont understand each other. 'PEOPLE CHANGE' ya everyone. Yg jahat le jadi baik n yg baik le jadi jahat.

Ive got many improtant things to think about than dis childish thing.

Results..

*so looking frwrd for dis fri to come*

I HATE HYPOCRITES!!!!

Lonely gal who misses her special one..

2005-11-13T00:56:00.000-08:00

When i see him,i realise how i miss him so much. When i hear his voice,i realise how i wish he could b mine again. People always like this. They tend to miss sumone who has left them. Thats wat i feel just now. To b exact,i miss dat sumone.. Sumone who has a special place in my heart.

I saw him. Yes. We saw each other at Aliwal just now. Its hard to forget him. Its very hard to avoid from meeting him. Its really hard when we get to see each other again and its really hard when our whole family knoe each other better.

He's much darker rite now and he's quite thin. My heart beats so fast when i get to see his face. Why why why? Why must dis feelings seem cant get out of this life? Why must he comes in dis heart of mine? Why must he makes me miss him dat much? Why?

Can u b mine again? I miss everything about u. Can we b together like we used to b? I miss ur company. Can we have each other like before? I miss ur concern and love.

So silly of me. He will never b mine again. Mybe he's happy wif her or watsoeva. Nah. We have own life to go. Can i let go wat i feel rite now by typing it all here? Im sorry if i happen to hurt anyone..

I MISS HIM. I miss hugging,kissing him and ya.. bitting his ear. heh =)) sweet memories. Memories will never fade away. I miss when he comes to me and shares his problems to me. I miss eating our fav bread together. I miss his 'head lying down' on me. I miss the fun 'mandi laut sesame' wif him. I miss wearing same shirt wif him. I miss shopping wif him and finding things wif him. I miss eating tosai wif him. I miss watching scary movie with him and i just shout out loud while he laughs looking on dis 'pengecutness' side of me. I miss the moment when he teases me and makes me mad. To b exact,IM SO MISSING HIM.

How i wish we could b forever. How i wish i could have those moments back in this life because nuthing much sweeter in my life than spending my days with u. But its all ended. There's nuthing between us now. We are now like strangers after 3 years 'close to each other'. haiz. People change..

I was so touched when i saw him approched my mum ONE TO ONE. For wat? Just to seek for forgiveness. He knew dat everyone was looking at him for approching my mum and seeking for forgiveness but he just talked to my mum bravely. Seriously i was so touched by his attitude. Although i was not there to listen to every words they said,but im happy coz he still treat my family like he used to b. Only dat he doesnt treat me like he used to b. =((

When my mum asked: 'apa da jadi nie? dulu baik2 happy,abe skrg ni mcmne?'. He answered: 'tak taula..' Ya,i noe its hard fer u to ans dat.. IM SO SORRY coz im the one to b blamed.

Too bad dat we cant simply understand each other. Too bad dat our dreams were all left as memories. Too bad dat we cant b together again. Coz u noe y? Coz we cant simply try to tolerate one another.

Wateva it is,i just wish him all the best. Im bad. Totally bad. and im very sure dat he will find a better gal than me. Im very sure about dat coz im not suit for him. He deserves the better one indeed.

For wat ive told him before.. 'u cant stop me from loving u'. yesh. here i just wanna let ya noe.. Although u may hate me or u may happy with her or u may forget me,just a lil reminder for u.. 'u have no rite to stop me from loving u'.

Its my heart dat matter. Its my feelings dat just cant stop from loving u. Its my life dat just cant forget you.

Oh damn. i sound like shit. really like shit. but its just wat i feel rite now. i really miss him. Those memories in pics will always make my life the special one. Thank u for coming into my life.

It takes my whole life to forget u..

Im still hoping fer the best..

2005-11-11T23:46:00.000-08:00

Yesterday outing with the JONs was awesome. Let me summarise it by pics.. It wud b much better yeah :)

The 4 gals are from irsyad and they are my so lovely juniors. eehheemm =)

And here are the guys. They just love to take pics. Ive snapped one of each pics but naaah.. it cant b shown.. but hey,they really look so cute! hehe.. n can u see their baju raya? yerps. the perfect traditional costumes and im so proud of it! :)

The boys kept laughing when they got to c eqbal's baby pics..

Here is my sweet loving sis with braem. Like ive told ya guys before.. the guys just love to act cute in pic.. hehe.. but hey.. i really enjoyed my day wif them!

Here is my so-called bro. GGGRRR... He is just so cute laaaa.. with his dimples and chubby face just make me go AWW AWWW... lol..

Here are my lovely friends and ofcourse,I DID enjoy myself yesterday. Wat i love about going out wif them is dat.. firstly,they really concern abt their prayers.. secondly,they really respect people.. thirdly,they can cheer me up.. lastly,they behave very well. basically,they are just so FUN and HAPPENING!! =)) Thanks guys..

For more pics,just go n click at my friendster's pics.. 50 pics are all up for the hari raya event.. hehe.. siow gerrll..

My lovelies came to my house just now. They were mira,shikin,noi,nana and muzam. oh god. how i miss those gerlies so damn much. we had our own sweet times in sharing laughter together and as usual,pet pot pet pot was the most interesting part of all. heyya gerls,when r we going to slack at the beach? hehe.. im waiting darls.. hehe. n remember,better let me noe ur n level result n plz do come back to irsyad..

Oh yaahh.. Talk about school.. ermm.. There's sumting dat i need to share wif u guys. Something dat i need to tell everyone out there dat i was so happy and amazed when received one msg. Ok people. Juz a lil update here. Juz wanna say dat,I WILL ALWAYS fail for my maths and english all this while. but not now..

Student needs to pass english(compulsory) and another 2 subjects in order to continue to o level class next year. Thank god dat i pass for my eng,malay and maths. Only dat i just dunno wat is the overall percentage for my maths papers. Oh god. plz help me. Plz help me to pass dat paper. my combined sci and geo are just so sux lor. F9 for the papers but i just cant b bothered la. need to pass 3 subjs out of 5 oni.. so ya ya ya.. PLZ GOD,HELP ME.

Talk about english. yeah. i noe dat my eng is just so sux to the core. i am so weak in language esp eng. When Mr edward called me just now to see for my overall marks for this whole year..

Mr esward: Luklu (index nom 5),come here..

Luklu: *smiled when i got to noe dat i passed for dat papers*

So i sat down at my own place. Suprisingly mr edward stopped from calling the next student and he began to say..

Mr Edward: Sumtimes i hear dat the teachers in the room say 'oh dis student cant do it'.

Suddenly his finger pointed on me..

Mr edward: This gal(pointing on me). She is the girl. I tot dat she would never improve. But obsolutely WRONG. She shows improvement..

And again he pointed his finger on me..

Mr edward: She is the gal who suprised me by her achievements dis year.

Suddenly he looked at me..

Mr edward: So luklu,u better work hard as to score well for ur papers next time. Uve shown improvements and im happy to see that. U must work hard or else,ill kick ur butt!!

The students laughed and they just smiled =) and only God knows how i feel when he said dat. Seriously,i was like 'nak nangis nak nangis!!!'.. Touching banget sik!!.. Seriously fuckingly absolutely IM SO SO SO malu pon ade.. gembira pon ade.. bangga pon ade.. smua la.. segala-galanye.. hehehe

So yeah.. Insyallah..

Kalau diberi peluang,ingin sahaja saya mencapai kejayaan itu.

Semuanya terletak di bahu saya.

Terima kasih saya ucapkan kepada guru saya dan kwn seperjuangan yang telah banyak memberi tunjuk ajar kepada saya.

Walaupun ada 4 dari teman saya tidak lulus untuk peperiksaan bahasa inggeris,

Insya allah,semoga guru-guru dapat memperhitungkannya.

Doa saya supaya,

Kita menduduki peperiksaan *STE 2005 bersama-sama,pastinya kita akan mengambil ujian o level bersama juga. Insya allah! =))

Oh im smilling rite now.. seriously IM HAPPY to hear dat. Not bcoz wat lorr.. only dat.. urrrgghh.. ive achieved sumthing today.. THANK U ((=

SYZTALOBE berhari rayerrr

2005-11-09T15:20:00.000-08:00

Its 3pm.. Supposed to b in school rite now but me? errrmm.. Just woke up from sleeping.. hehe.. So tired la.. Reached home at nearly 12am ysterday.. Soooooooo penat takble angkat.. kuang3..

Met the gerlies at as early 10.30am at boon lay yesterday. All of us wore couple colours. errm,i mean... 2 gerls with black or white baju. Two with purple and another pair with pink. When i met aisha,i just screamed out loud. Coz u noe y?? Coz she actually wore the same pink kebaya which me and 'HIM' found to b the favourite one at Geylang last time. URRGGHHH.. I was supposed to wear dat tau syyaaaaa... gggrrrlll.. Geram se tgk.. Seperti bak pepatah 'kenangan demi kenangan.. menjelma d ingatan..'.. haaaha.. aisha's kebaya really made me remember him so much ysterday.. ggrrrll.. damn u.. kesian kena pekik ngn aku... hahahaha.. da suda la tu.. da tggl kenangan pon..

As wat i told ya before,i had fun with the 5 gerls and i was so happy. We took more than 100 pics together plus with 4 cameras.. hahaha.. Im gonna make a video cd for it.. yeah yeah..

We went to 11 houses and ofcourse,we ate so many foods. Non-stop eating and we were so like 'bored' with the same kind of drinks at 9 houses. Alaa... yang air dia colour ijau tu.. hahaha.. We went to Don's house and we couldnt stop laughing coz her sis was so kecoh. hehe.. Then we went to aica's house and dis tym also bebual tak berhenti coz we really had a great conversation with her family. haha. Long time no c aica. Too bad dat im still missing her voice... hahaha.. =)) Went to dan's house(aisha's bf).. We had our own sweet tym in bullying him.. shhheezz :)

Hur couldnt stop from saying 'eh aku pakai tudung tau.. aku panas nie'.. haha.. silly gal. mcm dia sorg je yg panas eh.. n if u guys wanna noe.. the 6 of us pakai shawl la.. dats y panas sbb ade 2 lapis.. =)

Oh ok ok i noe dat the 6 of us wearing tudung but why why why ADE MAT2 N MINAH2 nk kena kacau kte? Kte takde kacau org per.. apesal org mesti mau kacau kte se. BLOODYHELL la eh. I noe dat 'minah tudung' song is the popular song rite now but heeelllooo!!! Remember dat we still got HEART ok damn u. Suka suka je nk nyanyikan tu utk kte. Smlm kte da kena 2 kali.. One at aica's void deck.. The mat2 n minah2 so damn irritating bastard sia.. seriouly. and hur zaimah couldnt stop herself from maki hamun dorg and kte smua terpaksa tarik hur coz she is really uncontrolable when she gets angry..

And another one hell group was when in the bus. The boys sat just behind me and adik. The boys were all SO KEPALA BUT**!!! Nyanyikan lagu minah tudung with the word 'bodo' kuat2.. wat a toot se. da la perangai irritating.. me and adik couldnt stop ourself from being irritating uh ape lagi.. we laughed.. we said 'eh iyekeh.. aku bodo ko pe hal lak.. tak siuman nye jantan.. haha'.. bla bla bla. we irritated them so fuckingly much till they kept their mouth shut.. haha.. da kalah ckp perr.. siak nye jantan.. pakkal la aku kai tudung eh.. lau tdk,sebakul sepinggan maki hamun aku lemparkan.. stooppiidddd uuuu..

No hard feelings eh. Cume geram je.. atleast they need to respect us la.. kte tak kacau per.. lain uh lau kte stare ke kaco ker.. mepekz uh eh.. kte pon ade perasaan yerr.. jgn main step ikut sedap mulut uh eh..

So yada yada.. had a great day wif my SYZTALOBE. I really lovethem so much n im looking frwd for the next outing bfore hur went to Cairo nxtwk.. Love u all to bits.. thanks darls..

and oh yeah. here is one of our pics. Feel free to c another pics at my friendster.. okies dokies.. adioss amiggoosss... =))

adik.LUK.nur.NANA.hur.AYSH

Lube u guys lots lots lots lots =))

Jalan2 hari rayerrr..

2005-11-07T23:00:00.000-08:00

Irsyadians got 2 days off for marking paper days. Hayya. Im so scared liox. Monday and Tuesday OFF. No school,so i noe dat the Irsyadians are all ready to jln raya with friends. Wawawa.. Bkn main eh adik2 ku smua..

N here i am.. Just reached home after sooooooo long day wif my classmates. Jln raya lorrr.. Outz from home at as early 9am.. Reached home nearly at 10.30pm.. Im ssssoooo tired but still had fun although im not dat close with my classmates... but as wat i believe 'u r the one who needs to make the first move'.. so yerpss.. i just made myself HAPPY for today. hehehe.. thanks to 16 gals who made my day =))

Just now jln2 raya then saw dis guy. and yeah. i noe he will read this. just wanna let ya noe.. We're now like stranger,dont u think so? We used to b so close but errmm.. time passed by without we realise dat we have our own life to go on.. N here i wan ya to noe.. dat i really miss ya.. i dunnoe y.. the sight of u make me ssooooo.. urrgghh.. k lets proceed to the next topic.. but hey,not ahmad okies.. duncha worries.. im not talking abt ahmad here.. hehehe..

Yesterday had fun wif my family. Dad wanted to break his fast at Seranggon.. Kite smua kempunan favourite mknan kte.. ape lagi lau bkn TOSAI.. oh la la la. hehehe.. then walk walk walk.. i bought one mp3 player fer myself. So siblings,dunt touch mine yeaahh =))

So sorry coz no pics to show coz MULTIPLY is just so sux lorrr... Da terexceed for dis month nye.. takpela.. u can go n c at my friendster okies dokies..

TOMORROW gonna b fun.. Go jln raya wif my so-called sisters... picca.NANA.hur.AISHA.adik.. we gonna have fun tomorrow.. lube ya all..

Ok.. better stop now.. its 11pm.. ive promised someone.. wanna call him.. whus dat him?? I cant tell yaaa... Only a hint here.. We were once outz for a date and there was sumone called me 'BITCH' when he got to noe dat.. WHO NOES???!!! hahahahaha.. keep dat secret btwn us..

Ok gdluck fer oll o level students.. all the best!

Kuang kuang kuang

2005-11-06T01:29:00.000-08:00

I had a big fight with my bro recently. I just dont care wat he feels and i just cant b bothered. I dunnoe why we really love to fight everyday. and i really mean it. everyday-fight-each-other. It made everyone in this house turned angry to me coz of dis bad-temper attitude of mine..

On last friday,i had a big fite wif dis bro of mine. All bcoz of he didnt allowed me to borrow his batteries. For wat?? For dis computer mouse coz im using wireless one. So its kinda irritating if the batteries flat. Oh yeah. Its hell coz i really had an important conversation at msn wif my great fren. So yada yada yada.. Fight wif my bro coz he took the rechargeble batteries.. fight fight fight..

And me.. Threw my tantrums on dis comp of mine. Aku tarik.. Aku tendang.. Yada yada yada.. Till its moderm wire suddenly PUTUS. Internet stopped. 2 wires were CUT off.

Brother and sister started wif their BLA BLA BLA.. Oh shuttup u idiots. So yerps,no internet for a day. Luckily my dad knows how to connect those wires back. I noe its quite difficult for him to do dat. But because of he wanted to settle those arguments btween us,he settled it all.. Tada.. The wires were definitely okay and Internet ON!!!

So the moral of the story is... Dont throw ur tantrums on ur precious things coz it will turn worse for everyone.. kiakiakia..

K luk mcm paham jek.. hahaha.. Ok now lets talk abt ysterday..

As usual,i really had fun wif every outing wif my father's side family. SO KECOH tu the max. Yesterday was so much happening and fun day for me. Kata boyan kan?? So kalo kwn pon dinamakan sedara.. Yeah yeah yeah.. We went to our 'so-called relatives' houses ysterday. Org boyan sememangnye kecoh abes.. So yada yada yada..

Jln2.. bila da byk collection tu,the kids wanted to eat roti prata.. So we headed to serangoon to eat at 12am.. Tapi smua pakai duit sendiri.. Org tua tak kluakan duit. hahaha.. kecoh.. and me.. very gelojoh.. I ate 2 roti prata cheese for only how many minutes. kiakiakia. Pecah rekod idop.. Roti prata punyela besar.. tapi lembut banget sik.. kuang3.

Okla.. Nuthing much i can say.. u can look at the pics taken ysterday.. n c dat outfit of mine.. i loike!! kuang3.. hahha.. k adios.. Ade tetamu and jeng jeng jeng.. Abg sedara ku sememangnye hensem2 banget sik.. aduuhh.. bisa buat kepala gue pusing dong!!! hahaha...

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Jeng Jeng Jeng..

2005-11-04T15:48:00.000-08:00

Hello dearies.. Hows yesterday?? Collection banyak tak?? hehe.. Oh well.. Now im gonna share abt my day ystrday..

Reached at my grandparents' house(paternal) at almost 11.30am. As usual,my family will b the last family to reach there. My relatives were all so NOISY when we reached there. With the laughter,shouts,smiles,jokes really made the place so happening. Wat i like abt dis family is dat, 'WE'RE UNITED'. Oh yeah.. Laugh laugh laugh all the way n i love the 'photo-session' part. Aiseyman. We r so so so so kecoh to the max!!

Outz from there at almost 1am and headed to my granma's house(maternal) at commonwealth. And as usual,we will always be the first family to reach there.. Kul 3 baru ade family yg smpai.. haha.. But still had fun and kecoh to the max la coz my mother nye side RAMAI sesgt.. My grandma da ade ramai cicit pon..

So yg ni opposite side plak la sbb sblh bpk smuanye kecik2 belaka.. yg sebelah mak plak,smua nye da tua2 bangka.. da ramai kakak2 or abg2 yg ade anak berderit.. Dats wat i like abt them coz got many BABIES. =))

Sorry to them coz this baju raya raya of mine was so irritating coz its manik2 berada d sana sini ruma nenek.. haha.. kat cushion,kat carpet.. SMUANYE ade glitter ku.. haha.. sowie yeah.. maaf zahir dan batin.. =))

My abg2 n kakak2 sedara of mine so playcheat coz they said: 'hey auk,kau nak duit raya,dtg ruma aku dulu.. baru aku kasi duit raya'. BLUEKSS.. :x ini tdk adil!! ahaha..

yada yada yada.. Outz from there at almost 6.30pm coz we need to perform our magrib prayers at my uncle's house at clementi(paternal).. So sad sbb tak dpt jumpe smua sedara2 kat uma nenek(maternal).. haiiyyoo.. then bila da smpai kat 3rd house tu.. errmm..

ATLEAST GOT AIRCON. satu hari suntuk panas. bile da rasa aircon,sedap sikit.. nikmatullah.. So yada yada.. waited for the rest to come.. Yada yada yada.. fun uh sbb sblh bpk slalu jln ramai2.. so yeah.

Headed to 4th house at clementi house olso.. Then to 5th house at West Coast.. Then to 6th house at my house. Then to 7th house at Boon Lay.. and..

PENAT MAAAHHH.. Takble continue laaggiii.. Balik ruma uh lepas tu.. Reached home at almost 2.30am tros tidur mati se. Serious punye penat gileeeeeee... Tapi still had fun.. =))

I REALLY HAD FUN YESTERDAY.. But errrmm.. im sad too coz there is still sumone who doesnt want to forgive the sins dat i made to him..

Seriously im totally sad.. =(

I called him 2 times ysterday just to seek for his forgiveness. yesh.. i noe dat ive done so many mistakes to him.. i was once made u cry.. i was once made u sad.. everything was me.. but why?

Sepatotnye kite bermaafan-maafan d pagi raya.. Tapi knape panggilan ku tdk dilayan? Sebaliknya dia reject. OH ONLY GOD NOES HOW I FEEL. How i was so sad inside.. How i wanted to cry to hear dat 'engage tone' when he rejected my call. Seriously IM SO SAD TILL NOW.

AM I BAD? AM I TOTALLY USELESS?

If he hates me dat much,atleast give me some minutes to say sumthing to him. Atleast give me a minute for me to seek for his forgiveness. Oh tuhan,apakah kesalahan hamba mu ini tidak dapat dimaafkan?? Apakah hamba mu ini seorang yg terlalu kejam sehingga tdk dpt dimaafkan?? Oh tuhan,apakah hati hamba mu itu tertutup dari rayuan maaf ku? Oh tuhanku,apakah ini dinamakan aidilfitri ketika seorg hambamu begitu keras hatinya? Oh tuhan.. tunjukkan jln yg benar utk ku..

Relatives asked 'bila nk dtg ruma dgn ahmad?' Oh geez.. They dun noe yet abt us. So yerps,hari yg baik dan bulan yg baik,ive told them dat we're no longer together. They scold me. Yerps,im the one to b blamed. As u all noe dat me and him can still meet till we getting old coz our whole family noe each other from long time ago. Yeah. Its kinda 'malu' uh sbb da putus skrg.. wat to do..

Talk abt the calls.. He rejected.. So i sent sms to him. NO REPLY from him. OH ONLY GOD NOES HOW I FEEL. =((

Wateva it is,ive done my part oredi. Its up to him whether he wants to forgive me or not. For wat my granny adviced: 'Sudah.. kau jgn carik dia lagi.. nanti dia ingatkan ko ni pompn tak malu asik kejar2 kan dia. da buat bodoh suda.. sekurang2nya kau da mintak maaf'.

Oh im strong here. Wateva happens,i'll try my really best not to disturb his 'new life'. As long as he happy,i would b so thankful..

OH OK. No hard feeling. Tu smua tolak ke tepi.. Takpela kalau org da tk bole nk maafkan kite. Bkn nasib kite.. Oh Luk plz tkmo nangis la.. cengeng la ko nie..

Ok ok.. So readers.. mesti tak sabar nk tgk gmba raya ku kan? hehe.. Tgk la kiez.. Tapi tkmo penat yer.. Enjoy ur stay there.. =))

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Selamat Hari Raya

2005-11-03T02:31:00.000-08:00

Its almost 3 am but im still here,sitting infront of dis comp..
Doing wat?? ERRMM.. Im sending testimonials to my friends.. HAHAHA. Coz im so budget to give those msgs by sms.. So yerps,thanks to INTERNET coz it saves my budget. hehe..

One day at home.. Done with the house chores. Oh damn tiring but nvm,its once in a year occasion.. hehe =))

While i was cleaning my closet just now,i had found 3 diaries of mine. Oh damn. It brings so many memories. Read those diaries and it made me smile,sad and cry. Basically the diaries contain abt the memories of me and my exs.

First diary is on year 2002. Dat time i was wif first ex of mine. The time when we fought everyday was all stated in the diary. The ego part of mine and the patient part of him.. I realise how i was so damn ego n stubborn when i was wif first ex of mine.. Haiiyaa..

And when i read the second diary,it made me smile. Coz im happy to read abt the moments when i and dat 2nd x of mine became great bestfren. hehe.

Third diary is all about me and dat 2nd ex of mine.. Damn. Its an oppsosite side.. And now i believe dat,

WAT GOES AROUND,COMES AROUND..

When i read those diaries,i almost cry. Wanna noe y?? Coz ive done so many mistakes to these 2 guys. Although we have our separate ways rite now,i just wish the best for u two.. May Allah bless u..

Just now i msged wif Rafiq n he asked : 'da mintak maaf dgn abgnye?'

Oh gosh. How? Tell me how is the rite way to apologise to him? He hates me. He doesnt wan to talk to me. Wanna noe sumting?? Ive bought one hari raya card specially for him. I wanted to send to him thru post but its too late. I wanted to give it to him but naaahh.. Its only left on dat desk of mine. NAH. Nvm then,there is a better way to seek for apologise than sending a card for him..

Its not fair u noe.. He gave frwd msgs to my sis n not me.. urrghh.. dont bother la.. he hates me n he really hates me. IM SO SORRY. Can u hear dat im begging an apologise to u rite now?? sorry.

Tomorrow is Hari Raya. Ladies & Gentlemans,r u ready to have fun tomorrow? Hope so ok darls. Have fun and enjoy ur day tomorrow..

I will absolutely have fun tomorrow.. I miss my relatives and BABIES. Wowww.. Many new-born babies dat i havent met before.. hehe..

Ok readers,

LUKLU ingin meminta ampun dan maaf sekiranye diri ini ade membuat silap salah kpd smua..

yg terlebih gurau ker,terlebih memekak ker,terlebih ketawa ker,terlebih merepek ker,harap maafkan yer..

Bak kata pepatah : 'buang yg keruh,ambil yg jernih'.

Cheybbaaahhh.... MINTAK AMPUN DAN MAAF SEMUANYE. n halalkan makan minum ku yer.. trutama skali halalkan air liur kamu yg terbuang utk lynkan karenah ku ini.. hehe.. ok luk da start mrepekz..

ONCE AGAIN,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN
KPD SMUA UMAT ISLAM DI MANA JUA ANDA BERADA

yg benar,
LUKLU ULHAMDIYAH

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Titi_VoK: Heyya sweets. Selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin too okies.. duit raya? aiseybedah.. terbalik la.. u sUppose to give me tau.. not me se.. hehe.. neways,enjoy ur day darl =))

deen: Yesh dear. U r absolutely rite. No one is perfect. =)) Selamat hari raya maaf zahir & batin to u too.. have fun ok darl.

Mira: Slmat ari raya to u too sayang! I MISS U mami J. muacks

Rina: Hey there rin,same goes to me toO.. Im sorry if i ever hurt ya before.. Just forget it all ok darl. LOVE u n have fun too ok dear.. muacks

Fanaa: Fana my sweetie pie darl.. hehe.. SELAMAT HARI RAYA to u too. Fana pon kena amek gmba byk2 n kasi luk tgk yer. konfem glamour mcm mak datin tau.. hehe.. HAVE FUN darl.

Syaz: Selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.. *hugs*

CinderLeha: Hey kak,dun talk abt exam lor. it makes me headache mahh.. hehe.. Btw kak, SELAMAT hari raya maaf zahir & batin.. *hugs*

One day before raya..

2005-11-02T01:01:00.000-08:00

One day more before Hari Raya. Woww.. So fast. Ramadhan gonna leave us soon. Will we b able to meet again nxtyr? As wat Rasulullah said to one of sahabah : 'if only my umat noes how wonderful dis Ramadhan is,they will surely want dis Ramadhan forever'.

Oh Allah.. I am a human being who will never stop from making mistakes. Im not perfect. Ive done many sins. Sumtimes i dun realise dat u'r watching on me. U r watching in every single step of my life. BUT ME?? Just an ignorant gal who sumtimes tends to forget her creator. Masya allah.

HOW BAD CAN I BE? HOW HORRBILE CAN I BE?

Sumtimes i sit and think.. 'if only people can see all my mistakes,how would i face them?' Malu sesangat.. Kotor nye hati ni.. Kotor nye diri ini.. Kotor nye perangai nie.. Kotornye smua.. =(

Smoga Ramadhan ini membawa keberkatan kpd smua dan smoga kte smua berubah mnjadi yg lebih baik,insya allah..

So talk abt dis Ramadhan.. Alhamdulillah,so far so good. Its a great month especially when i need to attend school for dis whole month. With school programme and activities about fasting month was really great. It brought up spirit to the students. Thanks to Ustaz and Ustazah who will always give their best stories and advices to us. =)) Im so grateful to b brought up by madrasah. Thanks school. <33>Besides dat,im sad too coz i was not completed full terawih for this month. Cume 13 hari je dpt terawih.. 15 days gone(9 days MC from GOD,5 days went to iftar wif frens). Pecah rekod idop. Hahaha.. My dad was not satisfied at all. Sorry daddy. =)

I AM TOTALLY BUSY wif house chores. OH ma god. So many things to b done. Kemas kemas buku,baju,almari smua.. SATU ARI TAK ABES. ape taknye.. buku sikit punye BYK. Mcm nk bakar je tau.. GRRRRLLL..

Busy busy busy helping the family wif hari raya celebration. Oh cool. My living room is so damn beautiful. My dad with his creative work.. awwww.. really excellent. He is such a great husband lor. Last yr my dad uat katil utk my bro.. Style gitu.. Tahun nie buat batu bata utk tv.. Feewwiitt.. Wanna c?? Come to my house kiez?? hehe

Btw,im using my previous skin. Wanna noe y? Coz im so damn bored wif dat 'fun-side of me' skin. So dis is my temporary skin while im searching for new skin. So yerrrpsss. Many people love dis skin but they hate the words.. Loser and all dat.. hahaha.. sorie la.. ni kan part masih frust agi.. heheh.. Gonna change it soon la..

Btw..

ERRMMM.. Wanna noe sumthing??

Ive not buy my first hari raya nye bag. WHITE colour. Smua bkn taste aku la.. yuckss.. So tomorrow need to find it wif my sista.. Really NEED TO.. Tgkla betapa kelam kabutnye aku..

For gals,

have fun la kemas bilik,mop lantai tu smua yer..

For boys,

have fun jugak la lap tingkap tu smua la yerr..

Yg pentingnye,

Lagi sehari lgi kite nk ari raya!!! weeeee =))

EXAMS OVER

2005-10-31T13:28:00.000-08:00

weeewwwiitt.. FINALLY. exams-no-more..

Just wait fer the result.. or HORRIBLE result??

Yups yups.. Lets wait fer the result..

Whether i will cry or smile..

HMM..

Just forget it for awhile..

Now lets think about dis coming raya..

Raya..

WEEEE...

Nuthing much i can type here lor..

Only dat im so stress up looking fer the best skin..

Hmm..

N for those who wanna c the pics taken last sat,just click at the pic and tada!!! ENJOY UR STAY THERE.. *feewwiit**

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OK gtg now.. Geylang is calling me.. haha.. Will update new pics tonite..

*cheers*

I really had fun today..

2005-10-29T02:35:00.000-07:00

YESH. I HAD SO MUCH FUN.

Outz from my uncle's house at as early 6+ am to Johor. So early maahh.. Dia takot jam uh. Ramai org nk alek kampong oitz. hehe. Reached there at as early almost 8 but the shopping centre still close yet. So we slept in the car first while waiting fer dat angsana mall to open at 9.30am. Bila da bangon jek,WAAHHH.. Ramai banget dey org disana..

Stepped into the mall. Hari raya song sana sini. Ini yg uat ku semangat nk raya nie.. haha. Me,Fathie,Nur,My uncle & Auntie were so damn kecoh uh tgk2 barang. esp me and my auntie.. Thanks to uncle coz he bought me one cute shoe.. weeee..i just love it. thanks lorr.. lube u.. then auntie recomended me to buy contact lense.

At first i couldnt simply believe dat it's only cost RM 50. RM 50 JE TAU. tapi bukan colour nye uh. Dlm ade 3 pasang. Each pasang can use for one month. So i can use dat for 3 months lor. Yups,with the power ofcourse. Coz luk ni degil. Ade spec tapi tknk pakai. I only wear dat in school. So now. Ive got new contact lense. Can use for jln2 n go to school. weeee.. Sape se tnk beli yg murah.. Confortable lagi.. bagos bagos bagos..

Jalan janlan jalan. Reached at my Uncle's crib at 3pm. OH DAMN. I was so tired to the max but still wanna go out wif the guys.

Met them at 4+pm at Clementi. Me & my sis met Nana,Ibrahim,Hafees and Fattah. Oh shuttup Luk. U made so much noises. Nak taknak korg kena layankan aku kan?? =))

Reached Geylang at 5pm and went to jln2 first. Then headed to Darul Arqam to perform Asar Prayers. We bumped into Rafiq and his fren and gez wat?? We saw KEKEL. Oh ma god. Me,nana n fisa couldnt stop ourself from shouting his name!! KEKEL da encem siotz. Spec no more. Mat-mat type lorrr... miss him se.

Bla bla bla.. Eqbal joined us. Oh dat guy is so damn cute se. He's a great entertainer. HAHA. Tak menyesal aku ajak ko eh bal.. haha. bla bla bla.. Straight to HAWA restaurant.

Ahmad Helmi joined us.. Dat guy loves to lie to me. Ish awk tak baik uh.. Tipu je pndai. haha. STILL HAD FUN. makan pon kecoh se. N hafees makan cepat wwooo.. Dia abes dulu. Champion uh awk.. haha. Ibrahim blanja smua makan la.. terkejut berok se aku.. at first aku bkn nye kenal dia sgt. Tros da bebual2,fun gak uh dia.. THANKS UH EH. SERIOUS AKU TAK PECAYE KO MURAH HATI SGT =))

WE..
The gals.. Me,nana & Fisa with the ALJ guys.. amat,apiz,fattah,eqbal and ibrahim. WEEEE..
PECAH PEROT + KECOH + FUN + GILA.

Went to Darul Arqam to perform magrib prayers then off to the bazaar. Oh hell. Rimas se aku.. eeee.. The boys looked for their baju kurung. alermak. HIJAU uh smua. =)) N dorg tu smua suka je bila dgr lagu dorg berkumandang kat kedai. biase uh,CELEBRITY per. haha.. Jalan jalan jalan then the guys bumped into one group of ex-ALJ students. Ramai se. Abe tgh2 jln kecoh.. abe ade one of them ni pekik..

'eh ni smua bdk junied oit. celebrity oit.. alermak.. junied oit'.. LOL. kecoh se. org sana sini tgk se. haha.. =)) susah plak klua nan celebrity eh.. hahahahaha..

Headed to Tanjong katong complex then bought aiskrim. 8 of us smua mkn ais krim and thanks to ibrahim!!! DIA BLANJA AGI. Oh ok. THANKS ONCE AGAIN!!! =))

Bla bla bla..Ira joined us.. So jln jln jap.. layankan karenah bdk lelaki tu smua then preceeded to Singapore Post.. eh,btol pe tu tmpat?

TEMPAT CANTIK. so lepak lepak lepak. REALLY I HAD FUN.

Byk story uh kite cite. Kelakar tkle tahan. haha.. brahim blanja air lagi. haiyyo brem. Murah hati sgt uh ko nie. aku tak kluakan sen lagi pon se. haha. Talk talk talk.. Pic Pic Pic.. Said gdbye to them at 10.30pm..

'Rilek uh.. masih siang. sok tk skola.. ari raya uh ape lagi..',dats wat the guys told me.

Haaha.. Took the same MRT wif nana,ibrahim n my sis.. =)) Ibrahim gile!! Reached home kul 12.15pm se. hahaha..

REALLY I HAD FUN TODAY. bila agi nk klua uh korg?? Fun uh. HAHAHA.. Pics sok mlm ku mskkon eh. To them,sabar uh.. nanti aku tolak pics tu smua kat korg *winks*

THANKS TO ALL FOR MAKING ME SMILE AND LAUGH LIKE CRAZY PERSON. We must go out again otey *winks winks*... Tomorrow nak kena g geylang amek baju agi.. haiyyoo.. Monday pon same. WEEEE... Geylang oh geylang.. Gile geylang uh...

P.S: I noe dat my skin is kinda 'boring'. HMM.. Im gonna change it to a new skin nxtwk.. =))

Can i have dat nite??

2005-10-28T15:42:00.000-07:00

My auntie msged me just now. She said dat she failed for her car test and she was totally sad.

Oh no. Suddenly i realise dat im totally scared of failure.

Huda,Mira and all N LEVEL students who really want to take O LEVEL wif me,IM SORRY. I noe dat i might hurt their feelings but oh man. I just dun have dat confident to stay there. I noe dat im not capable enough to continue. Yesh. The fact is dat,my school is so damn strict in marking and all dat. 15 stubjects are not dat easy to cope. Ive just finished wif my major exam and suddenly another papers come. O LEVEL topics. O LEVEL format. Very strict in marking. I dun think i can stay there coz i noe dat i will surely get bad results.

So. On my way back home.. All alone.. I think.. think.. think.. about the next path of my life if i fail to take O level nextyr.. Finally,ive made up my mind. If i ever fail or stayback..

I wan to try continue my studies at ALJ. Coz u noe y? Yups,my ambition is to b Childhood educator but my academic is so damn suck. I can score well for my ukhrawi subjects.. so wat is in my mind rite now is dat.. ALJ is the place. The place dat will make me focus to arabic. The place dat will bring me to MESIR. Yesh. Dats the place coz i dun think so dat im capable enough to go to academic side. Yesh. Dats the second target.

Maria oh maria.. amcm lau aku skola sama nan ko? Gerek ak?? Haha.. The boys said 'eh wak.. msk ALJ uh.. g Mesir sama2 after pre-u'.. n they said again: 'awk kan pompan.. lau ade bimbingan agama,awk le didik anak awk.. n gipon,ilmu agama tkde smpai penghujungnya..' WA WA WA. Haha. Oh damn. I miss the boys. Tomorrow go geylang together otey? hehe.. suka je eh bila ku ckp nk msk skola korg..

But its all depend on my result. If i can stay to take my o level,OFCOURSE id stay coz for me.. 'Aku mulakan d sana.. aku habiskan d sana..' almost ten years there. So sad to leave. So dun ya worry dearies. Its all depend to my result. Im so damn scared. Betul2 tak tenteram se..

Oh shutuup Luk. Lets proceed to the next topic..

Tot of going to Geylang wif my cuzie today but its cancelled coz.. errmm.. coz i dun wanna bump into sumone. ermm.. THEM. NAAAHHH.. Better not..

Today till monday,my schedule is so damn full.. hahaha.. terima kasih pada sape yg da book aku.. weeee... Geylang geylang.. GO GO GO.. WEEEEE.. Tomorrow go johor then geylang n tak alek.. weee

OH K LUK MEPEKZ.

TAK GUNA. BENGAPZ.

Mlm ni org byk2 nak berlumba qiyamullai,ko lak happi2 gini.. haiiyaadey.. School got iftar n all dat tonite but sowie. Tkpe. kat uma le solat sendiri. haha. eeik. Qiyam sendiri lagi best se. Ko nak nangis ke meraung ke lantak ke ape ke,antara ko nan tuhan.. best kan?? Try uat uh.. N ku dgr2 mlm ni byk masjid uat qiyamullai.. esp MASJID AL-FALAH. wa wa wa. bdk madr ramai banget deeyy g sana.. Tot of joining but naaahh.. I wan to overnite at my uncle's crib.

Reminder to people.. Ramadhan da nak tgglkan kite.. Malam yg dinanti2kan akan tiba..

Cari cari carilah malam lailatul qadar.. i wan dat nite plz :x

N yeah,a lil update abt MAJIDAH KHAMSANI..

She's now in ICU n in critical condition.

Alfatihah utk dia..

*Praying the best for her* =(

PAPERS ARE SO DAMN SHIT

2005-10-28T00:06:00.000-07:00

I dunno why im turning like dis. I dunno why i cant simply do my really best for my papers. I dunno why i tend to give up for everything. I really dunno.

I noe dat i will surely fail for my english. Plus wif combined Science really made my life so miserable. Im so scared of waiting fer the result. Yes,im so damn scared. I had my Chemistry Paper 2 just now and i dont know why i simply GIVE UP for dat paper. I left many qstions. My mind stopped. The information abt it was all gone. I really give up. Shit shit shit. The Paper was really a nightmare hell for me. I dunno why.

If i ever fail for dis year n could not b able to continue for my O level nxtyr,GDBYE to school. Coz i dun think dat i wanna continue der. For wat? Atleast if there is N LEVEL class nxtyr,i might give it another try although i waste a year.

Ive decided for the next path for my life if i ever 'stayback'

I noe its my fault for not paying attention n concentration towards my studies. All i need is time coz im so stress up wif all those stuffs. I really dunno of how to cope wif my studies. I just finished wif my major exam. STE. It kills me alot to cover my academic subjects fer only a month. Oh damn. I really cant cope. O level format n chapters for all papers. I dunno. Besides dat,sumone keeps hurting my heart n it makes me so damn emo n stress up. I swear dat i really stress up.

HOW? am i going to face my teachers? HOW? am i going to ans my teachers if they ask about my blank ans on my ans sheet? Damn. Im so scared.

Oh shutup Luk. No use crying rite now. Its all past oredi. Only God can help me. Only teachers can help me.

I DUNNO.

WHY??

SERIOUSLY HATE TO SIT FOR PAPERS.

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Lets pray the best for her..

2005-10-26T17:01:00.000-07:00

First of all,i would like to reply those tags fer my lovely taggers =))

Sadrina: Who say dat i can simply forget him? Never darl. Ive once told u dat me and him can easily meet one another.. U noe dat our family is kinda related n all dat. So,its hard fer me coz i still can c him around till im old. *uweks uweks*

Syaz: Hey dear. Thanks fer advicing n concerning abt me. Yerrps. Maybe the format changed. Btw,u go to school for iftar dis friday? =))

Mira: Mira syg.. MISS U SO MUCH.

Sewie: WOW. Ofcourse i remember u. Tenkiyuk fer dropping by here. hehe. Do visit here often otey.. *smiles* =))

Fragile clinche: Opss sori mr. Ive found dis line from dis blog itself so i never tot dat it would b ur own trademark. I never change anything here. Ur trade mark? OPSSS :X sorry then. I will change ok. Btw,erm,u hate followers? Dun say dat coz i noe u hate me very much rite now. OK DEN MR. I will change dat 'TRADEMARK' of urs. So sorry then. N yeahh. hate me n treat me like shit.

Rina: Im not sure dear.. i'll let u noe otey.. muacks muacks

Ira`Spyder: Hehe.. Takpela.. Pikir sal raya,stress smua ilang.. hehe.. Wa wa wa org tu tahun ni hijau la.. weee.. *winks*

Adies: Semangat uh aku nie.. padehal enta le pass ke tdk.. haha

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Sumtime to share..

ITS ALL ABOUT A GAL..

She...

were once recited Al-Quran very well.

She...

were once smiled wif dat sweet smile to everyone..

She..

were once dressed up in complete Muslimah jubah n hejab..

She..

were once been the shy student wif soft voice..

She..

were once studied hard for her PSLE..

She..

were once put high hopes fer her PSLE result..

EVERTHING CHANGED when she..

She knew dat she had kidney failure..

She knew dat her kidney couldnt even function as per normal..

She knew dat PSLE was another few more weeks to go...

She knew dat she couldnt sit fer her PSLE...

NOW..

She is in hospital..

Lying alone without friends,teachers and books.

She is now in hospital..

Sumtimes she cries due to the pain..

She is now in hospital..

From the begining of dis fast month..

She is now in hospital..

Smile when she sees her friends visit her..

She is now in hospital..

Her friends cried to c her in dat condition..

She is now in hospital..

When everybody is happy to celebrate Hari Raya..

MAJIDAH KHAMSANI..

ALLAH is gonna b with u..

I noe its hard fer u..

But u still have the school's support..

Ur family n frens will always there..

Kuatkan semangat..

Kite smua doakan yg terbaik..

To all,

Bacakan al-fatihah utknye.. Smoga dia sembuh seperti sedia kala..

AMIN

Geo sucks

2005-10-24T13:48:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh. Fer the first time in my life..

'NO-SLEEP-IN-24-HRS-TIME'

Waaaahhh.. Strong gal.

All thanks to GEOGRAPHY dat made me so ADDICTED to it till i just COULDNT get myself rest fer awhile.

GEO SUCKS

GEO SUCKS.

Had my Geography paper 2 just now fer 2 hours and 15 mins.

I picked 3 qstions from HUMAN qstions. A qstion from PYSICAL.

Oh hell. NO WAY TO PHYSICAL qstions ok.

Coz it really SUCKS.

Write..

Think..

Create rite senstence..

C the clock..

OH SUCKS.

Wrote only 8 pages. CITOT.

I didnt manage to attempt all qstions.

HEY HELLO.

Da tau geography kite konfem bebual byk.

Kasi kte 4 jam ke.

6 jam ker..

Oh bedekz. Jgn bedekz luk. Konfem ko tdo se.

HAHAHAHA.

Fer all i now,IM NOT SATISFIED N NOT HAPPY WIF MY PAPERS.

Need to do well fer Geo Paper 1 nxtwk. Really ITS A MUST.

Geo sucks. Sucks. Sucks. OPSSS :X

Oh now,i miss studying HISTORY. 2 years gone just like dat. HAIYO. Y must we drop se? STUPID SKUL. opssss :x

All the best fer him

2005-10-24T03:07:00.000-07:00

Just to let ya all noe dat everything settled btwn me & him.

We dont need to contact each other..

Friend-no-more

Relationship-no-more

Patch-no-more

Fight-no-more

Cry-no-more

Finally dats my ans fer him. NO.

He doesnt understand me.

He said: 'Me or ur boy friends'

Not bcoz i love my boy friends than u..

Its u who cant simply understand me.

Oh damn. I dun wanna repeat my old mistakes.

He said: 'Sape suro jilat balik?'

Oh geezz.. Totally confused of how to ans.

His nick on msn: 'In life,u have to make sacrifice..impossible to have all..so make the choice dat brings u happiness & dont regret'

Its not sacrifice as the subject but it is UNDERSTAND.

Ok friends. Satisfied wif my ans? Hope i make myself clear here.

Coz i dun wan to hurt anybody's feeling ever again.

Coz i noe its hurt.

Its not his fault fer being like dis.

Coz its not his fault fer falling in love..

plus wif dis is his FIRST LOVE.

Yerps. I noe its hard fer him.

Sorry. Its my fault fer teaching u of how to fall in love.

IM SO SORRY AHMAD.

Maybe der's sumone who loves u more den i do.

Who noes?

Or maybe der's sumone who is much better than me.

Yesh. U deserve da better one.

Yerps. Im truly loving ya so much.

It hurts me fer saying gdbye to u again.

Our memories and all dat.

Will never b erased.

Thanks fer everything.

N im sorry fer hurting ya.

B happy & gdluck..

Coz i care.. :(

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Oh damn. Its 3am rite now. DUN WAN TO SLEEP. Coz im so damn bz studying fer tomorrow's paper. Geography makes me sick.

Oh well. Better stop here.

STUDY STUDY STUDY.

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Never will i forget dis..

Sumtimes we just need to leave the one who we love most..

Coz we noe..

Dat he/she will find him/her happiness one day..

Juz to let him noe..

Never will i forget u..

Coz its u who make my life more special..

N take note of dis..

dat..

I LOVE U.

:'(

Cari cari carilah...

2005-10-23T15:05:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY WAS FUN.

GEYLANG OH GEYLANG.

Yesterday went to Geylang wif my Relatives was A HELL FUN FUN FUN.

Went der by LORRY. N oh hell. ITS HAPPENING. HAPPENING.

With dat kecohness of us.

With dat laughter of us.

With dat joke of us.

With dat cam-whore of us.

With dat loud of us.

REALLY. I ENJOYED MY NITE YSTRDAY.

Aunties. Uncles. Couzies. Siblings. Mum. Dad.

THANKS.

I dunno how to describe or tell story abt ysterday. U can view the pics later otey ;)

Out from Geylang at 12 pm. Headed to Pasir Panjang to eat.

FUN FUN FUN.

Out from der at almost 1.15am. On the way to send those boys to my granny's house,IT'S RAINING. N all of us KANCONG se. HAHAHA. ape taknye. Lorry tkde shelther oitz. BASAH se. HAHA. Luckily got big canvas. So kite beramai2 bersembunyi d bwh canvas. LOL. Kenangan se. FUN FUN. We all laugh laugh laugh. Habis smua basah. HAHA. The boys were so damn cute. Malam2 buta berdzikir. Bwk lagu dzikir sendiri. Smlm dorg bwk version dzikir tone ari raya plak. LOL.

-click fer more pics-

HEART YA ALL SO DAMN MUCH.

Ok ok stop. NOW.

Im so stress up.

Tomorrow is my Geography Paper 2.

But i havent open a single page yet.

IM SO USELESS.

Cant even conentrate.

AHMAD.

Dun make me feel so sorry and sad.

With those nicks on ur msn and all dat.

PLZ.

Help me.

Understand me.

I noe dat u r waiting fer e ans.

All i can do rite now is..

JUST KEEP QUIET

coz

I,MYSELF CONFUSED.

Hurt.people.no.more.luk.

I just dunnoe.

God,plz help me.

STUDY.

HIM.

FRIENDS.

BAAAAHHHHH

I DUNNO.

Tonite go buka wif my relatives at granny's house again.

SO LECEH.

But gonna have fun again. weeeee

People. Tonite or tomorrow da msk 10 MALAM TERAKHIR.

Rebutilah. Seperti ape yg telah ALLAH bersabda : 'Lailatul qadar khoirun min al-fi syahr'

Carila satu mlm yg digelar LAILATUL QADAR.

N yerps,QIYAMULLAI byk diadakan d masjid. P uh ikot sana. Konfem best.

n n n n..

QIYAM KAT IRSYAD DIS FRIDAY TAKKAN KETINGGALAN.

I MISS U SENIORS & JUNIORS.

FRIENDS & TEACHERS.

*hugs*

Geylang? Oh tiddakk..

2005-10-22T14:06:00.000-07:00

Can i share some story about yesterday? May i? Plz.. Good readers =)

I had my Eng Paper 1 and Paper 2 yesterday. Oh my God. It sux sux sux. Seriously fuckingly horribly totally DIFFICULT. Plus with the 'unclear' questions. Mati uh aku. Konfem fail se. Seriously. If i fail for dis paper,i would not b able to take my O level nxtyr. Whether out from dat skul or stay back. STAY BACK? no class fer us la dengz. URRGGHH. Citot uh. Den about Paper one. Section 2 supposed to b report writting but 90% of us wrote Letter writting. SIAK uh. ANIAYA se. urgghh urrgghh. Serious talking dat im still trauma wif dis paper. Trauma? Diam dar.

Reached at Mira's house at 6pm. Oh damn damn I MISS MY DEARIES SO MUCH. We really had fun ysterday. Although some of them reached there after magrib,oh hell. its fun se. MIRA,i love ur mee soto so much. So delicious. U r great dear! U can cook wateva i like. Next tym SPHAGETTI plz? Lol. N Nooie,i LOVE UR BROWNIES. urrgh. Still tak puas tau sbb aku cuma mkn 2 jek :( I had fun ysterday esp wif many great listening pair of ears for me. Thanks for the advices,lectures n so so so. Although some may call me stupid but i noe dat i really am. Sapek,Bel & Den,thanks alot. We ate aiskrims.. Watched THE MAID story.. bla bla bla..

Its 8.30pm. Its time for me to say bye-bye to all. I noe dat they hate me for seeing him. I c their faces and they just hate to c me leaving the place. Sampaikan Sapek simpan kunci n tak kasi klua. So sorry dearies. I wont hurt anyone of u again but urrggh. U wont understand me. Its heart the matter. Thanks Mira for the gift. I HEART U ALOT. Thanks everyone. We gonna have fun some other time. IM REALLY SORRY. Seriously,im so sorry :(

Met him at Mira's void deck. His block is only one block across Mira's block. So yada yada yada. Reached Geylang and oh ma god. SO PACK SE. Cannot tahan maaaahhh... urrgghh.. He searched for butang n sarong while i searched for bag. Go jln2 wif him n suddenly he looked at dis one set of pink baju kurung. Oh man. Plz. Dun make me cry otey. I noe its our dream to wear the same baju kurung for hari raya but its all ended.

Yada yada yada.. Reached at the bench near to my block at 11pm. Talked talked talked. Ofcourse la we fite. He's not happy wif sumthing la tu. Yada yada yada. Its 11.40pm. Ape mau tunggu. Takkan nak gado smpai pagi. Angkat kaki jalan suda. Gado gado pon anta aku alek kan?? Sebok jek. Org kata jgn ikot,nk jugak.. LOL. Thanks yeah coz u sent me totally kat ruma. LOL. Still the same as u used to b.

Talked wif him again on the fone rite after he reached home. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.

Fight till we talked abt sumthing seriously. He talked. I heard. He talked. I heard...

*HP RANG* -one msg received.

OH MA GAWD!!!!!!!! Aku tertdo smbil bebual ngn dia rupenye. DASAR KURANG AJAR NYE AKU. urrggghhh.. Tapi funny gak uh. Camne se aku le tetdo ngn telepon uma skali. LOLZ. Nasib baik dia msg n oh hell. Biase gak,full of maki hamun. Sorry uh. Bkn sengaja per. Penat maaaahhh.. Called him back n said sorry sorry sorry. Yada yada yada. He said 'ya Luk,i noe u better. Lau penat slalu gini.. bla bla bla'.

Thanks for ysterday's conversation. I really need some time to think. But serious talking dat im still not satisfied wif ur desicions. U cant simply understand me. SERIOUS. I love u so much but u noe.. i dun wan to hurt other people's feeling. Many people will hate me if i stick wif ur desicion.

WHY CANT U SIMPLY UNDERSTAND ME?? If u understand me better,i would b so grateful.

Rina told me dis: 'because it's their first time experiencing how does it feels being loved and to love someone. and they're scared if they lose their special someone. maybe that's why he tends to get jealous even though it's over something small. he's just afraid and doesn't know how it would be like life without you.'

U r absolutely rite dear. thanks.

Wateva it is,we're just frens. TILL WHEN? only God noes. Nah. Its too personal to b posted here.

I dun wanna hurt my frens ever again. Serious. I dunno how to explain. :(

Ok shuttup Luk. Just concentrate wif my exam wud b much better.

Today im going to geylang again after terawih. OH TIDAK........

RRRRIIMMAASSSSS..

RIIIMMAASSSSSS...

Im not ready for the papers

2005-10-20T22:20:00.000-07:00

First of all,i would like to thank Huda & Sadrina for yesterday. I really had fun. TOTALLY. Met the dearies at Wdlds at 6pm coz Sadrina finished work at 5.50pm. As usual,i would always b the first person to reach there. Oh janji melayu tkle pakai. LOL. We went to Causeway Point first. Many interesting people we saw. Sadrina brought us to Metro to look on dis wallet. Siow uh u. So expensive se. But Sadrina,its too plain la dear. BUT I LOVE THE WATCH. weee. It suits u sweetheart.

Sadrina is one of a good actress for me & Huda. Thanks to Sadrina coz MUNANJI smiled at Huda. LOL. Serious talking se. Dat MUNAJI is one hell of prettiest 'gal' siotz. Tapi padehal padehal. LOL. After dat,went to bazaar there. We bought Burger Ramly,dendeng,keropok lekor,2 Pau from 7 eleven n one big super gulp. There was one stall dat have been fooled by us. Sorry uh eh. Kite terbastard makcik uh. Kesian air tu. Kata nk beli,tapi kite cabot. LOLZ.

Had our buka at void deck. I LOIKE. coz we really had fun together. Kecoh to the max se. Haha. Huda took video of us n we looked so damn disgusting. Eat eat eat till we were damn full se. Haiyoo Luk. U becoming so gelojoh eh.

Reached home at 10pm n called him straight. As usual,he's not happy wif dis attitude of mine of reaching home late. Bla bla bla. Everthing settled n end our conversation at 12+.

Every morning at as early 4+am,sumone will call me n wake me up. 'make sure u eat rice otey'. bla bla bla. *dun ask me who but if u noe,just keep it by urself otey*

Tomorrow is the day. The day when the first paper starts. The day when i meet my dearies. The day when i meet sumone who will never b forgetten..

As for all i noe,

i'd have so much fun tomorrow. Really im going to.

Mira. im just missing kissing n hugging u..

For the others,we gonna have fun n rox each other life tomorrow.

Lube u guys.

And.

Wish me all the best for my exam.

Need to pass all papers.

Till den..

Need to revise for tomorrow's paper n need to call sumone.

*winks*

Weeeee..

2005-10-18T22:54:00.000-07:00

Just went back home from meeting sumone.. ahaaa...

For dat sumone,

THANKS FOR THE LOVELY NITE!

n yeah,thanks to that favourite chair of ours..

coz the chair saw every moments we've shared togetha..

*smiles*

In love with the pool game.

2005-10-18T14:17:00.000-07:00

I HAD A GREAT DAY WIF ZIZIE YESTERDAY.

Although we only played pool for about an hour,oh my God. Both of us really had fun. Me & dat kakak sdara of mine couldnt solat,so i asked my dad to drop me at Clementi Interchange n met zizie der at 8pm. Zizie taught me very well of how to aim well for the goal. N yerps,u noe me. I had a lil prob wif my hand position. With dis short finger of mine was totally frustrated. We laughed alot man. REALLY WE HAD FUN. Dat sexy Ida came at 8.45pm. Oh dat gal is so sexy. MASYA ALLAH. Tgh Ramadhan nie Ida. Buang tebiat uh ko. LOL. You are still the preety head for me. Heart Zizie & Ida alot.. *muacks muacks*

Nuthing special for today la.. Only dat we went home early for 4 days. Just now got Malay & Chemistry. Each subj got 2 hours period. WOW. So mendakz. Students were cheating while doing Chemistry revision paper. As wat Mr Muneer said 'do it by urself,no communication,no notes n bla bla bla'. Dia klua je.. ape agi.. kite p bkk buku yg dia photocopy kan revision paper tu n check for the ans uh. haha.. weee.. we scored full mark. THE WHOLE CLASS WERE CHEATING. Notti uh u all.. :p

The Secondary 5 are busy preparing for their GCE O Level Examination,starting with the Science Practical Exam starting on today,as well as their Arabic Lang Paper. Let us all doa for the success of these pupils.

Not forgetten to aica,wani,dini & fana.. ALL THE BEST TOO! =)

Tot of going to Geylang wif the gals today. But den,it was cancelled coz i dun wan to have some misunderstanding. Coz my class also got buka puasa beramai2. So better cancel both appointment. Takot satu pihak kecik ati..

Actually kan people..I wan to go Geylang tau but wonder when. Friends are having exams. Haiiyyaa dey. I wanna go Geylang & Far East. When is it? Haiyo. With who se? Haiyo. Susah gak idup takde laki eh.. LOL.

Wateva it is,sesiapa da uat date nk klua g geylang nan aku,better hold ur promises aitez. after exam otey?? WEEEEE... nak dendeng.. nak dendeng.. =)

n again,

im so in love with the pool game. weeeee

*nak g lagi plz*

Happy Bdae to me

2005-10-17T18:29:00.000-07:00

16 Years ago,a lady gave birth to a baby gal on 17 Oct 1989,7pm at SGH. The couple was so happy as it was their first daughter. The baby was given by the name of Luklu Ulhamdiyah. That name was imported from Surabaya and was given by one kiayi there. Her name is so difficult for people to pronounce and sumtimes people just love to make fool of her name but wateva it is.. She just loves her unique name with the meaning of 'Pearl dat is so precious' hehe =)

So let c some pics of her..

Can u see dat mark? Dat when i was errm.. one or two year old. Doctor said dat if dat mark still der when i turn to teen,they will cut it off. Thank God. Dat mark dissapeared naturally. LOL. But got some tanda uh..

Ahaaa.. Thanks mum.. U noe i love pink alot rite.. haha.. She scared of strangers. She will cry definitely. =)

The notty lil me. Sorry mum. Kesian almari tu jadi sasaran.. hehe

I miss my childhood life.. haiyoo. Love those cheeks. AWWW.. Now im quite gemok sikit la. NO NO NO. hehe.

Well.. Story for today..

Woke up from sleep at 6am. Received ermm.. 15 smses. WOW. Im so touched. THANK U. The shortest msg received was from kak syaz 'HAPI BDAE'. Haha. Short phrase. N the longest one was from my Junior,IRA. WOW. 3 pages of SMS uh i think. For the rest,THANKS ALOT.

For the calls,testimonials,smses till now..WOW. AGAIN. TOUCHING. Thanks uh.. So malu.. Someone called me n said dat he/she will only wish me at 11.59pm tonite. Let him/her b the last person to wish me. LOL. Boleh eh gitu awk.. N again.. Someone sent me another sms bdae wish n i laughed like nobody business.. 'da16 uh.. bila nak g clubbing?' LOL *u noe whu u r* Still early maahh.. OPSSS.. LOL

Reached school and oh my god. *cover face summore*. My juniors IMANITES sang a bdae song for me. Da la kat assembly court. Whole students tgk au. MALU GILE. Nasib baik ade hur.. Le cover malu sikit. AGAIN. She gave me one BIG CHOC. OH MA GOD. I LOIKE.

After dat.. Bla bla bla.. Another surprise.. Went to office first to write the attendance. Reached the classroom n AGAIN. BDAE SONG FOR ME from the whole class. Oh PLEASE. *merah padam muka aku*. N AGAIN,big rapper consists of MANY KINDS OF CHOCS. OH oh ok im so blush. Dat prezzie was from the whole class. I APPRECIATE IT ALOT.

Thanks to all. WEEEEEEE.

Hanisah told me sumthing n yerps,HEART BROKEN MAAH.. She said dis,

'Luk,last saturday i saw him at Geylang wif a gal. Holding hand summore'.

Oh well. IM TOTALLY urrgghh.. Rilek Luk. Rilek Luk. He explained everything n yada yada yada.. wateva it is.. i noe he wants to play game with me. I noe its all my fault. N thanks for dat wish too okies. Although i may not celebrate dis special day wif u as we used to dream for.. hey,those smses are enough for me.

Wateva it is. Whether u bad or good.. Got gf or not.. U cant stop me from loving u. GET IT?

As wat sis syaz tagged:

Life is too short to b sad always..

U r absolutely rite kakak.. Thanks alot =)

Oh well.. Tonite going to play pool with zizie n Ida memandangkan takle solat. Zie,ur treat for my bdae rite? HAHAHA.. CANT WAIT LOR.. weee

GAME? Bah!

2005-10-16T18:15:00.000-07:00

Went to Tanjong Katong Complex with Mum & Sis to take our hari raya baju. Nuthing interesting to share coz we only came there for about 2 hours. Let me summarise the day with pics. (click to enlarge)

The first pic of the day. She still not in mood but tried her really best to smile.

Can c my mum's eyes? Yeah. Coz she cried too much last nite. N yerps mum. U can always have me as ur good listening pair of ears. Everything gonna b fine.

One of my baju raya. Oh man. Salah buat la abang. See my tangan.. So long se.. G jahit alek uh.. =(

Ahaaa.. Dat baju is for the first raya.. Full set of dis baju's pic cant b shown =P

2 Sisters addicted to the camera.

Ahaaa... Ina came down to join us. Love her sweet face. IM JEALOUS OK.

1989's babies.

We just love to pose. Couzie foreva.

Dad is not in mood.

Oh man. Im not in mood too. Dunno wats happening till i really feel so much pressure. Exam is coming and ive not prepare a single thing about my studies. Someone plz help me. HOW to concentrate n out from many probs? IM LOST. IM SCARED. IM SAD.

Secondary students start their first paper tomorrow except for my class coz we only take for academic's papers. Juniors keep calling me and asked 'Kak luk,ade STE notes ??' Sorry dearies. Ive given Hur oredi. N dat bestie of mine called dis morning.. 'Luk,free niari? Aku nk mintak ko ajar Faraid'. Haiiyaa dey darling. Why last min??

Sec 5 Students have left the school. Dats mean dat my class is the senior among all coz no Sec 5 n no other sec 4 class except my only class. So we betta show a good example to our juniours.

Today i cant solat so no need for me to rush to my granny's house for terawih. I wanna go BB tonite to buy sumthing. ALONE? Maybe. Dats my life rite now.

Im starving rite now coz i havent eaten anything from ysterday. People Sahur,i sleep. People buka,ku termenung. Dunno why uh.. Seriously NO MOOD at all.

Talked with sumone ysterday at 1 am till 4 am. Bla bla bla. Ok den. U wanna play game wif me? Go on.

Yang pentingnya..

I HAVE NO MOOD AT ALL.

SMILE makes me HAPPY

2005-10-15T21:10:00.000-07:00

Any idea of how to return dis smile to her back?

She needs dat smile but wonder how..

coz she's missing her SMILE.

Another lonely day..

2005-10-15T18:25:00.000-07:00

Oh man. Im so addicted with dis one Surah. The only Surah which repeats the same ayat many times. 'FA BI AYYI ALA I RABBI KUMA TUKAZZIBAN'.

The story of the surah is also interesting. For those who wonder wats dat 'LUKLUAH WA MARJAN' means.. Do read dis Surah Rahman. Find wat dat real meaning is.

Start my day by talking with sumone for almost 3 or 4 hours. Those words & promises,are those for real or its only just for an action? Wateva it is. Lets keep dat btwn us.

Tot of going out wif my auntie & uncle to Causeway Point but nah. Im totally lazy n no mood to shop. Spending my day at home with only comp,music & sleep. I cant fast today so its kinda tiring day for me. GET IT??

At 5pm+ after i woke up from sleep,received many missed call n sms. Sorry for not answering those calls n smses back. Fad told dat he just went back home from NS just now n he wanted to break fast togetha. Haiyyaa deeyy.. No mood dey. Azar called my house n ajak klua. N again.. No mood n tired maahh.. Theres one guy keeps begging to go out wif me. The reason is 'wanna celebrate ur bdae'. Wat a toot. LOL. My only wish is to celebrate with the one who i love most. So sorry for dat guy coz u noe dat im not dat comfortable to go out with only u & me.

Another 6 more days to come bfore my big exam again. Oh god. Im not in mood to study and im not concentrating at all. It kills me alot. Really it is. I dunno what actually bothered my mind. Exams finish in the same week as Hari Raya. WALLAU. Dats mean dat my xam is for 3 weeks.. errmm.. ya it really is.

I went to Aliwal last nite and saw him but nahh.. Papat gave a cd for my bro. So now im listening to their recording. U boys did a good job but need to practice more. N sorry to say dat the vocal is not dat good n the kompang sumsort like terabuh. But naahh.. u all r great.

Stay at home all alone till nite? Think so or maybe i go out to one place. Ok mum keeps nagging. Need to go to shop rite now..

AHAAA. Bfoe dat.. just wanna tell some interesting story. I was friendster-hopping when i came cross with dis one guy's account. He is x ALJ. U noe wat i saw? My used-to-be tutor's face,Nuzhan. N but wat actually im interested in is dat..

THE PIC WAS TAKEN AT THE FIRAUN'S PLACE. OH MAN. DATS MY DREAM. I WANNA GO THERE PLZ. The boys took many pics der n im so jealous. I WANNA GO.. URRGGHH..

Peepz,JUNIED album da klua. So g beli la yerrr.. Nice songs i musy say n NICE VOCAL I MUST SAY *winks to brem*. Congrats to the boys. All the best.

Dont create trouble.

2005-10-15T01:38:00.000-07:00

SMS received at 08:04 pm on 13-10-05

'Haha.. Bingo! I've won! =)'

NOW I NOE EVERYTHING.

N NOW I REALISE.

HOW IM THE ONLY PERSON WHO NOES U WELL.

U R TOTALLY HEARTLESS.

Thanks for dat long smses. 1 sms consist of 5 pages.

I noe dat from the begining.

I dun wanna hurt any feeling.

I dun wanna find any trouble.

I dun wan people to point their finger on me.

Exam is coming nearer.

Better keep dat secret n feeling btwn me,God,Her/Him and dat HP of mine.

*NEVER TROUBLE TROUBLE UNTIL TROUBLE TROUBLES U*

Moody day for me

2005-10-13T19:21:00.000-07:00

I didnt even get myself concentrate in class.

I didnt even understand any of the topics.

I turned to be so moody n i was left all alone by myself.

'Luk,are u ok?',frens asked.

Sorry to give dat silent ans to all of u. I noe some may scared to c me in dat moody face coz i noe.. I look totally serious n fierce wheneva im not in mood. Esp to Aden. I noe he tried his best to make me smile.. He wanted dat attention from me. SORRY. Today i really got no smile & laugh for the class like i used to b. SORRY FRENS.

Yesterday i slept at almost 3am. Couldnt sleep at all. Tot of calling sumone to hear me out but naaahh.. it was late at nite.. Tot of chatting at msn or mirc,but naahh.. not in da mood.

I dunno y. Many things bothered my mind. FRENS. HEALTH. EDUCATION. FAMILY.

Rite after we've been dismissed just not,i saw two gerls dat I really miss. I couldnt stop myself from shouted their names n hugged them. I noe it was middle of the assembly area n i noe people was looking at us but oh shutup. I really miss them alot.

AMIRAH & SHIKIN.

Finally they made my day. They made me smile. They made me laugh. They made me happy. I HEART YA SO MUCH.

Im looking frwd to buka puasa at Mira's house nxtwk. I just cant wait. Serious. Cant wait to meet my dearies. OH GOD. I MISS THEM SO MUCH.

Btw peepz,i wanna put a song in dis blog of mine but i dunno wat is the suitable one to b used. Any suggestion? My used-to-b-greatfren once tot me of how to use geocities but i was stucked there. N now,it was left as memories.

NAH.. Shut up Luk.. Life must go on. Yerp,im trying to forget it all but im sad. Y must it happened now? wen i wanna noe dat fren of mine better. havent go out together. Now.. Memories left.. Oh LUK. Shut up.

Remember,no matter wat.. -ku kenangmu d dlm doaku-

N for my so-called 5 sisters,I WANT PEACE OK. So plz dearies,lets forgive each other n hold no grudges. U noe how im trying really hard to unite all of us back to wat we used to be. U noe how i love u all so much. Plz forget it all n start afresh. PLZ.

LUKLU. FISA. HUR. NANA. AISHA. SHIKIN.

Lets b togetha again. =(

Im trying not to cry

2005-10-11T00:43:00.000-07:00

Life.. is beatiful when sumbody cares for u..

Life.. is beautiful when sumbody appreciates u..

Life.. is beautiful when sumbody loves u..

Oh well,actually im not feeling well rite now. Ive been sneezing alot for the past 3 days n it keeps irritate others. SORRY.

Tot of sleeping rite after i reach home just now but y dis feelings seem to be.. urrgghh.. n yerps,im sitting infront of dis comp.

N yerps. One news was found.

Im happy coz i believe dat fate brings them togeda. Im happy coz they will lead a happy life together.. Everyting togetha..

Im sad? TOTALLY. Coz i lost my old fren who used to b my bestie n i lost my new fren who used to promise dat we'd b frens foreva.

I dun wan to talk dat much coz im trying not to cry. Just wanna wish congrats to both of u. I wont forget both u coz ur frenship or ur love are much appreciated by me.

Hey everyone.. Im ok. Perfectly ok but i need sumtime to cool down.. Sumtime.

To them,better dun bother to noe each other's life again ok. We better stop here. We have our own life. We have our own dreams. I wish the best for u. Hold no grudges okies =)

Im ok. Im happy yet im trying not to cry. Can sumbody plz lend me ur shoulder? I really need one rite now.

Nuthing to b worried about. Im ok. I pity dat bestie of mine alot. Saw her tears just now. Oh my god! She turned to b WORSE! She really loves his x alot but oh my god. If i were in her place,i would definitely hate him foreva. TOTALLY coz he is such a heartless guy. Plz don cry. Exam is coming nearer.

N yerps. Im trying to concentrate with my upcoming exams rather den relationship or watsoeva. Its not important at all. Insya allah,i can find the better one too =) insya allah.

Ive promised many people.. Dat i wanna start a new life.. n im looking frwd to go one place dat is very far away from here. To where? Ikutila kisah hidupku.. :) Although sum may reject it coz it takes 4 yrs but naaahh.. Wanna study n start afresh maahh.. To where n when? SECRET. But its my dream. My true dream rite after i left him.

So peepz. Appreciate those peoples who love u n always hold dis,

*Hidup mesti berani terima kenyataan*

n dats the reason y im trying not to cry n im trying to b strong here..

*cheers*

HATE HIM.. URRGGH

2005-10-10T18:31:00.000-07:00

I HATE HIS ATTITUDE.

TOTALLY HATE!

AKU JIJIK NGN PRANGAI KAU..

EEE EEE.. MALU NYEEEEEE

OH DAT MR.

IM STARTING TO HATE YA TOO MUCH RITE NOW

JIJIK NYE AKU NGN PERANGAI KO.

EEEE.. JIJIK.

I TOT UVE CHANGED. WTF

Who's dat he? Only God noes.. N only one of my great fren noes dat. Oh god,plz help him..

STOP LUK. PUASA URGH. Sabar sabar. Ok people.. i will only update & online on wed or thurs. Ku tk alek uma. So anything just call me. 24-hrs-free. LOL. lup u lots.

N remember,I JUST HATE HIS FUCKING ATTITUDE..

oppppssss.. Sabar Luk.. Sabar..

Only God noes how i feel..

2005-10-09T13:26:00.000-07:00

Yerps. Dat 'I LOVE YOU' cushion is mine from sumone. To b exact,my x. He bought dat at Surabaya. So sweet so true.

But people.. as wat ive posted before,sweet talk does not last long foreva. People will say 'I LOVE U' or 'I CANT LIVE WITHOUT U' only for a while. Or shuld i say,IN LOVE? But wats happen with those promises after break up?

I donno y.. Y dis feelings cant simply get off of my life. Does love is only for awhile? Dat bestie of mine called me. Oh my gawd. Wat happened baby? U made me feel so sad to c u in dat condition. Plz dont dissapoint me. Although he is gangster,tattos here n there,he still has a heart. But y y y? He changed totally? Why after 10 months? Why he turned to be so inhuman? Why? Baby,i noe its hard for u.. Yerps. Infact we r the same. He's my everything but can u c how im trying very hard to start afresh rite now?

Yerps. Im missing him but who cares?? Who cares of how i feel? U noe it dear. But naahh.. We must b strong. As wat my ex told me 'Smoga kite dpt pengganti yg lebih baik. Semoga kesalahan kite boleh menjadi pengajaran'. Yes. He was totally rite n i hold his words in dis life. Its hard to c ur love ones with another gal. ITS SUCH A NIGTMARE.

ITS SUCK ok. I hate. But naahh.. One of my x has done dat to me. N me? PATIENT. I dont wan to talk dat much in detail. Dear bestie,u noe everything abt me rite.. How ive tried to avoid from them.. How ive suffered before..

So. Just to let ya noe.. U can start a new life without him. Ya,its hard. But wat to do. Dats life meant to be. As fer me,if i ever noe dat my x has a new gf,I HOPE n I WISH,dont ever2 let me noe. PLEASE. it hurts me.

People.. sumtimes we need to do mistakes just to learn who we are..

So yeaahhh.. Life is sucks at times but it is wonderful,dont u think so?

IM MOODY rite now. Donno y. Wanna outz. To where? Only God noes.. Till then,b happy aitez..

New skin dearies

2005-10-08T18:30:00.000-07:00

Hello ladies & gentleman! Hows ur day? Oh well,my day is so MENDAK. Sit infront of the comp all day by doing all these stuffs. So yerrps. Ive done with the new skin. Colourful colours reflect my new life.. Hiakhiak. How is it?? Or do u prefer my previous skin?? No? Ya? Comment ok hunnies.

Mom is working.. Sis is having meeting.. Dad is having kenduri.. Bro? I just cant b bothered. Oh man. BORED to the max. Btw,we didnt have our sahur today. LOL. Terlajak maahh.. We woke up at almost 6.. Oh now im starving.. =)

Another exam is coming on this 21 October. The last paper is on 31 October. Dats mean dat there is no holiday for us on Deepavali. I dont noe how to cope with my studies. Geography,Physics,Chemistry,Maths,English & Malay. Ya i noe its all academic subjects. Although it doesnt need to memorise that much yet it is so HEAVY to cover it all. Especially GEOGRAPHY. Sec 3 & Sec 4 books plus with Map-reading books. OH ma gawd. How i wish i could have some rest & out from dis exams n watsoeva. Like or not,its my future.. (:

My hunny had a big prob with her guy. Or shuld i say,BREAK? hhmm.. naah.. She is in dillema n her mum keeps calling me. So sorry to hear dat auntie. Yerps. Im her bestie but its hard for me too ok. I will surely do my part as her friend but u noe dat she is so stubborn? Hey hunnie.. Listen here.. Sweet talk is only for a while ok darling. People changes from loving to hatred. U noe hunnie.. Guy's ego is much worser den a gal ok. There is many guys out there dat are much better than him. Ya,i noe its hard for u but can u c how hard im trying to live rite now? Cheer up ok baby. No point ponteng2 skul or ponteng puasa or alek tgh mlm or watsoeva.. Im here for u & i wish the best for u..

Yerps. Im so scared of not being a good friend. As for her case,im one of her important person. She & her mum are no longer 'GOOD' to each other. Infact,she hates her mom alot. I pity her mum but i just hope dat she will change one day. She is part of my life. Whether she is bad or good,she will always b my bestie. I will try my really best to help u dear.. Cheer up okies..

For good times and bad times,i'll b on ur side forever more.. dats wat frens r for..

Miss the school

2005-10-05T23:57:00.000-07:00

2 wks nvr go to school. When the moment ive stepped into school gate dis morning,i was so happy. Hey school,i miss ya so much. What happened to u??

My form teacher told us about what had actually happened last week. We were so damn shocked yet it was really such an interesting story.She told us about how the ustazs talked with the jin. Many stories. We were so damn shocked to hear dat 6 of Pergas Students also been possessed on Saturday. So it was 3 days yerps. Thursday: 20+ students. Friday: 5 students. Saturday: 6 Students(They rent our school).

Alhamdulillah,no sampok sampok for dis week. Hope dis Ramadhan guides us fron any jins or watsoeva. I believa & we must believe dat all this things are actually exist in this world. Insya allah,everything gonna b fine.

After dat incident happened,the students changed. N ofcourse changed to the better one. Some little kids holding quran all the way n when we ask them, 'y u always hold quran here n there?' The little kid answered 'coz my dad told me to'. LOLX. The Primary students are so cute. Still remember those moments in Primary school Life. Everyone has grown up. Everyone gonna c goodbye.

Dat was wat i felt just now. Saw dat empty class. I tot dat i still saw the gerls saying HI & BYE to me. But NO. They left the school. No one was there to make me smile. NO. Left only memories. Hey Mira larling,i think dat im using ur table rite now coz there is ur combination name with him on dat table. VANDALISM yeah hunnie. Saw dat table n i felt sad. I MISS THE GERLS. Gdluck for ur N level aitez.

Supposed to have ukhrawi class but u noe rite.. STE's over so no ukhrawi subjects needed to study. yeahpz.. We had our solat duha. Then recited Surah Al-baqarah,Yassin,Ayat Kursi & the three kul. NON-STOP reading ok everyone. Surah Baqarah panjang gile se. 50 pages. HAIYYO. Penat mah. Tkpelah,bkn slalu kn.. :p Had our Maths class for half an hour just now. WOW. Almost more than a month se tak bkk dat book. N dis otak still need time to change ukhrawi subjs to academic subjs. Wat to do.. Must study also.. 3 more weeks. GA GA GA.

Like per normal,after buka,need to rush. No relax2. After buka,solat then siap. By 7.40pm must go out frm home. Clementi bukan dekat tau. Today is Zizie's bdae. I think she is so stressful with her school work. Papepon,smoga pnjg umur dan murah rezeki ok.

Ok people. Im sleepy. I think dat i will not b able to update or online dat often. Anything,JUZ CALL ME ok. Take care. k da tertutup mata nie. tata

Slmt berpuasa!!

2005-10-04T16:02:00.000-07:00

2 days no skul for me. SO MENDAKZ TO THE MAX.

Oh ok den. Atleast i had fun wif the lovely gerls ysterday.

Met Sadrina & Huda at Causeway Point. Oh gosh!! Met Sadrina after long time since we last met n ysterday was our first outing togetha. Rite babe? Woohhoo..

Sadrina bought a black pant for herself at Metro. Oh gossh. So lmbt se. LOL. Then proceeded to POPULAR to buy Mathematical Insturment for Huda. Very noti2 huh u.. Bsk exam baru nk beli.. Then we proceeded to 7-eleven to buy plasters. Oh ma gawd. Dis new shoe of mine was
totally irritating sak. Sane sini kaki aku luka. Melecet abes se. GGRRLL..

On our way to Burger King,there were 3 secondary school gals talked about my new shoe. Oh hell. They r so short sak. Kecik2 mulut da jadi busybody. LOL. Sadrina cannot tahan mah.. She turned to the gals n marah. WOW dear. U r ssooo fierce se. Haha.

Had our lunch at Burger King. Sadrina taught Huda Mathematics due to her N level today. Huda looked so moody. BAH. Lets not talk about it in detail.

Sadrina gave a suggestion.. 'Nak g town? Tgk baju..' So yeah.. Outz from Burget king at 5.30pm. Went to shop at town.. bla bla bla.. Till it was almost 9pm. WOOOHHOO...

<>We must go out again ok dearies. Huda was not in mood. She had a problem. So it same goes to Sadrina but i noe dat she tried her best to have fun ystrday. Dearies,wateva it is,thanks alot. Although ystrday was kinda short day but hey,i really had fun!! We must go out again ok. I'll
pray the best for u two. Heart u two lotz.

(For more pics,plz click dat pic)

ATTENTION PEOPLE. Today is my twin bdae. OPSS.. no. THE COUPLE BDAE. LOL. No la. Still friends rite? To my blood sister for life,NUR NAFISAH and my great friend,AHMAD HELMI. HAPPY BDAE TO U TWO!!!! Smoga pnjg umur dan murah rezeki selalu. Happy2 slalu la korg eh. LOL. No way man. My sis dari dulu tkde bf ok. PURE MAH. wahaha. To Nur,smoga ko tak jadi kapla batu slalu. To Ahmad,smoga dpt msk Universiti yg terbaik di Saudi Arabia nxt yr. INSYA ALLAH. HAPPY BDAE!!!!

From me to her..

She's 15. He's 18. HAPPY BDAE! Nak tau sumthing? Dorg celebrate bdae dorg kat town sesame.. weee.. SO CUTE!! i loike! =)

Today is Syaaban. Tomorrow is Ramadhan. Wat does dat mean? Yeap. Solat Terawih start mlm nie. So it will b the same rountine every day for dis whole month. After buka,need to solat magrib then outz to my grandparents house where we have our Solat Terawih berjemaah with relatives. As wat my dad trained me from i was a lil kid, 'no ponteng of solat terawih'. Oh well,i'll try my really best for dis yr too ok daddy.

Smoga Ramadhan yg suci ini membawa keberkatan kpd smua. Smoga Allah memberkati semua,insya allah. Sblm itu,luklu ingin meminta maaf kpd smua keatas segala kesalahan samaada yg sengaja atau tdk. Smoga kite berpuasa dlm niat & hati yg suci. Till then,anything just call my hp. Elakkan dari sms yer. ku budget. LOL.

'SLMT BERPUASA'.

Thanks for the day darlings.

2005-10-02T23:02:00.000-07:00

Oh well,im not fuckingly ok. Something keeps bothering my mind. Ok den,let me cool down by sharing some stuff with u guys.

Today,i just had fun with my darlings. Oh gawd,it was so unseparable friendship. Bfore dat,i saw sumthing unexpectedly.I was walking at my Void deck when suddenly i saw a group of guys wearing white baju kurung with sarong and oll dat. Saw dat face n i was stunned.OH MY GAWD. Luckily i didnt wear spec,so i saw them blurly. IT was him,my x ok everyone. Dat big Papat shouted my name aloud.. BAH. Dat cousin of mine is so loud. Still loving u couzie. Hehe.

Met Hur Zaimah,Rio,Fad & Azar at Jurong Point. We ate ice cream & shared alot of stories dat happened recently. Rio & Fad,hope u two will b strong facing all those obstacles in life. U still have us behide u. People will come & go in our life. So sorry to c dat sad faces of u two.I pity both of u. Stay strong ok.

Went to shop there.. Me & Hur just couldnt stop looking at the shoes n shirts. WOW. No money. No buying. So just keep our mouth shut. For Hur,i had fun with u. ALOT. Thanks for being there. Thanks for 24 hrs-holding-my-hand. haha. WALLAU. We really look like couple,arent we? LOVE YA LOTS.

Me & Hur were so damn atrracted with dis one pink shoe. So we really like 'oh hell,its cute...'.. Fad saw us with the shoes n he said 'just take it n i will pay dat for u two'. Me & Hur laughed coz we really didnt believe dat crap. BUT NO. He repeated his words,'i'll buy it for u two. Just take it'. Me & Hur were really shocked. Oh damn. How could u se fad. So sweet. We didnt wan but he forced us to take dat shoe. And oh,so he bought dat shoe for us.Thanks bro. Lube u. =)

The 4 of us 'slack' at banquet while waiting for Fad to change to his ARMY uniform. Met Fisa at Yew Tee n we slack n cam-whoring at Yew Tee. Sweet Laughter. Sweet friendship. Sweet memories. heart ya all. =)

There is no school tomorrow & tuesday for my class. IM SO DAMN BORED. Someone plz take me out. I wanna enjoy these few days bfore Ramadhan arrives. WEEEE..

These are some photos taken.. We look so cute aint it? BAH. :))

october babies.

Our new shoe. THANKS FAD!

Showing off our shoe.

AGAIN.

Oh the mentel..

I heart her laughter.

HEART YA ALL =)

Fad is getting ready..

Sisters for life.

7 yrs of bestie. Need her so much.

PEOPLE,can i ask u sumthing? Is it real dat im bad? Im not worth keeping till the end? Yeah people. I am a human being. Sometimes i wonder.. Will i be able to have many great frens.. Dat will always regard me as her/his fren sincerely? Does friend only come & go in our life? Do they just come to our life & leave only scars??

Dat was wat i kept thinking from just now.. All after i fought with a guy about sumthing. I didnt noe where i really done wrong to him. For my close frens or old frens,did i ever lie to u?? i may be bad. i may be sucks. but lie is not the rite word for me.

I tot dat im strong enough. I tot dat i can accept... Dat he had showed his true colours to me. I tot dat i never being hurt by any guy anymore. I tot dat i wanna live in peace n happy. SORRY LUKLU. U still cry for guys. Luklu is totally bad & useless =(

For dat sumone,im terribly sorry. Today 2-10-05 is such a horrible day for me. I lost a great fren. A fren who used to joke around with me. A fren who i tot will always b my fren till eternity. SO SAD it was all ended with only scars here.. IN MY HEART. Wateva happens,im terribly sorry. I dont noe.. M I SO FUCKINGLY USELESS?? who just loves to make others hate me dat much?

Friends,im sorry. Plz i just hope.. n i wish.. dat everything in dis world must b done sincerely. In everything.. So it goes in friendship. Accept me for who i m. Accept me sincerely. Insya allah,we will b frens till eternity. Coz wat a friendship without a fight rite??

N for him,im so sorry.I don wanna hurt u anymore.So we betta stop here.IM SORRY.

-totally dissapointed-

EXAM IS OVER

2005-09-30T16:36:00.000-07:00

FINALLY! EXAM IS SUCH A HEADACHE FOR ME. IT KILLS MY BRAIN CELL TO THE MAXIMUM PERCENTAGE.

BAHH!! Ok lame,i noe..
5 days have passed yet many memories & problems had happened recently. This post will be long as i wish to. So if u wanna read it or just forget it,its up to u.. For all i know,i must write everything down here.

FIRST STORY: STE DAYS. Strictly advise to my juniors dat will b sitting for ur STE nxt yr 'PLEASE IMPROVE UR ARABIC LANGUAGE OR ELSE IT WILL KILL U'. Im really serious about this. U noe dat STE format paper is all the same except for Arabic.

So here is the format:MCQ: 25questions -25marks

SAQ: 8 questions(each qstn got 3 qstions)-25 marks

Essay: 4 topics -50 marks

As per normal,u must answer all those 25 MCQ qstions. U need to pick 5 qstions from SAQ,so it goes 15 qstions and lastly,choose 2 topics for Essay.MCQ & SAQ is not dat important. BAH. No no.. Not like dat.. I mean,atleast its much better than Essay part coz mostly u must do Essay with ur own words. One Essay consists of 2 pages long. So 2 essay must write 4 papers. IT KILLS ME LIKE HELL JUST TO CREATE FOR RITE WORDS.

For *STE 2006 students: PLZ N PLZ N PLZ. Read many arabic books and make ur language as perfect as u can. No points to memorise just for essay ok darlings.No such things. If u r totally lucky,u may use ur memorisation for the ESSAY. But if the qstion is not from the book,how?
There are many qstions dat i came across for STE ESSAY dat need to use ur own brain and words. Example for Tafsir paper: 'Bebual & bincangkan tentang bahayanya munafik di zaman ini'. BAH! Dat topic is so tricky. My house got no Munaffik,so how am i going to elaborate it? BAH. I can score full mark for dat if they ask for 'Munafik pada zaman nabi'. SERIOUSLY. Coz dat was wat we studied and hope dat qstion would b out for the Essay but it was the opposite way n OF COURSE I DIDNT CHOOSE DAT QSTN. Brain tortured abes..

Basically,all papers 70% ok. 30% like shit. Some are tricky qstions dat made me tricky while answering the tricky qstions. *wat the heck*U noe y? COZ I WAS SO DAMN LAZY TO STUDY. After reached home from MWTI,I slept till nite. Opened my books in the morning around 4 or 5am. IM TOTALLY SICK OF STUDYING.

U must b wondering wat paper was so *bullshit to the max* rite? The usual ans,ITS NAHU ok everyone. Korg mesti pikir2 eh nape NAHU susah..Korg mesti ckp.. ala Nahu kan cume letak baris n so so so je.. HELLO. Although its given 2 pages of composition for us to just do the 'BARIS ATAS,BARIS BAWAH N SO SO SO' its hell ok.. Consist of 50 marks! Ikrab & Saraf is so damn difficult too.. NAHU IS TOTALLY SICKENING! The easiet paper? ARABIC & TAUHID. weeee... Had fun doing both of the papers. I think dat i might not score as good as i used to wish to. I have dat confident dat i can pass for all the papers but for the grades and all dat,i noe it will TURN WORSE. HORRIBLE.

Next is about memories.. ALOT. First time to sit for a big exam with the other schools. Only 4 madrasah left who took for dis year STE. NO CHALLENGING AT ALL :( Total students took for *STE 2005: About 80+ students. I had many interesting memories while taking dis STE cert.

FIRST: Met alot of friends.

SECOND: Could observe each people's attitude while doing their exams. Some were playing with the shoe till it flew away *wat a ridiculous*,some had a bleeding nose,some were having a great nap,some were.. BLA BLA BLA. Bermcm2 manusia yg le jumpe. Sweet memories,Sweet times. =)

Some students came late for the papers n went back early from the time stated. One of Aljuniedianz gal were all the way 'SLACK' while doing the papers.She always play with her pen,sleep,n i saw only little ink on her ans sheet. BAH. We pity them coz they need to study those STE chapters by their own. Wateva happens,alj always will b the best in Arab Language & u all will straight be there.. SAUDI ARABIA. Respect u all for dat.

N for Maarifians,I JUST RESPECT ALL OF THEM. I just cant imagine how they try to cope with their studies. They take STE & O level in the same year. Baru last wk dorg nye O LEVEL prelim.. FUUHH. Da la the whole school tu Express. Abe dorg amek A maths,bio,geo n so so lagi.. Plus with the STE subjects,GIRLS,HOW CAN U MANAGE DAT? Respect abes se..

So dats it.. Memories in having a bad & great time while facing the tricky qustions. Im happy for not studying all those Ukhrawi subjects yet im so damn sad inside.From primary one till this moment,we study fiqh,tauhid,sirah and all.. NOW.. Goodbye.. Academic books needed only. I WILL MISS MY USTAZ & USTAZAH. Kenangan akan ku bawa guru.. *sob sob*

SECOND STORY: Thanks for the wishes,calls,smses n tags! I appreciate it alot. Im so touched to noe dat i have many great frens. Thanks dearies. For some of my darlings,who SMSed me just to gave those 'I MISS U' words,THANK U. I miss u all too.. N i miss school.

For dat x of mine,thanks for concerning abt my exams although it was only a day. Trust me,i will always hold ur advices. *Ingat.. sblm mula,baca doa,then uat ngn tenang then bla bla bla'*.U noe wat? U made me feel sad when u adviced the same words to me on last monday bfore i sat for my papers. Thanks ahmad. I appreciate everything. He msged me at dat nite just to noe how i was doing for my papers n he was totally dissapointed when he knew dat i havent open a single page yet for tomorrow's paper. Time tu da kul 10pm. He said 'apsl tk blaja?? kalo ko masih nan aku,konfem aku da tenking ko rabak2 tau luk.. takmo ni mcm la.. haiz'

U NOE Y AHMAD? YA,aku slack abes after we split. Im lack in discipline. Last time,u were there..u scold me tiap kali ku tak blaja..u dissapoint tiap kali ku degil..u always call n check on me 'da blaja ke blom?' n sumtimes u ask me qstions about wat ive studied. U were der thru thick or thin but not now ahmad. No one calls and checks on me. Infact,i miss those calls n smses from u.. Ur concern.. everything..

U may think dat ive changed.. U may think anything about me now.. I noe dat u hate me after u noe how i was behaving..towards my study.. attitude.. no discipline at all.. He said dis 'setahu aku,luklu aku adalah org yg brdisiplin yg tekun dan yakin dgn masa depan dan pelajaran dia'.. No dear ahmad,i noe dat u're dissapointed enough but i dont noe why im behaving like dis. -LACK IN CONFIDENCE N DISCIPLINE-

Btw,on our last conversation dat nite.. We talked about many stuff n i was so touched by his words n i cried. Sorry ahmad,ive made u cry many times too. He said dis to me 'LUKLU ULHAMDIYAH,ni mungkin balasan aku keatas ape yg da aku lakukan kat byk pompan. Aku bastard dorg n skrg ko da bastard aku balik. I deserve this kan luk? Kau jgn ragu tentang kejujuran cinta aku kat kau. Aku sanggup abeskan masa cuti aku smua juz for u smpai aku ketepikan keluarga aku. Aku abeskan n share duit gaji aku smuanye dgn kau. Aku kasi ko rasa tiap wang aku dpt. Kakadg2 kite susah,takde duit,tapi aku ttp lapangkan masa dgn ko sbb aku tak pena berenggang ngan kau. Ko bodoh dlm menilai perasaan aku kalo ko rasa yg ko ni ku ibaratkan mcm pompan lain. Tkde pompan uh eh aku uat ni mcm. Kau pertama luk,dan kalau aku tak dapat pengganti ko smpai bila2 pun aku tk kesah. N LUKLU ULHAMDIYAH,ko dgr sini,kalaupun satu ari nanti aku dapat pompan yg lebih baik dari ko n bole kasi aku kebahgiaan sperti mana ko kasi aku,aku dgn rela hati terima luk.. sbb aku menyesal tntg ape yg aku buat kat kau. Aku harap kite jgn contact. Seksa idup aku luk. Aku taknak amek tau sal ko sbb tu uat aku sakit ati,jealous n bingit. Da luk.. Aku doakan yg kite dpt pengganti yg lebih baik dari kite dua. Lastly,I LOVE U.'

Ahmad,aku tk bastard ko ok. Bastard tu mainkan prasaan. Aku tak. Aku syg ko cume aku rasa kite tkde persefahaman. Yes ahmad,kite nak kena hidup tanpa tau kehidupan satu sama lain. Lau aku tk dpt pengganti ko pon,aku tkpe mad.. ko tau camne aku susah utk buang ko dlm idop aku. Sebab tu aku le sabar n terima ape yg ko da uat dulu. Bagosla lau ko da sedar kesilapan ko.. Dgn apa yg ko da ckp kat aku,aku yakin yg ko le berubah. Aku sorry sbb pggl ko EGO. I noe dat u can change. SORRY AGAIN. SORRY. SORRY. I appreciate everything from u.. ayang sayang abg.. opsss.. -auk sayang mamat- take care.

THIRD STORY: At 11pm on wednesday,received a call from my aunty. She told dat my grandma was hospitalised. My parents rushed to the hospital n went back home at 4am. Pity them =( Went to visit nenek with the gals rite after my 2nd paper.. Saw nenek n i just SO SHOCKED to c her in dat condition. With big 'lebam' kat pipi with red eyes dat looked like blood. NENEK,PLZ SIHAT SEPERTI SEDIA KALA *praying*

FORTH STORY: Syed Azmir is not the JUARA for Anugerah!! URGH URGH. Dat guy is so damn excellent with cute n handsome face. GORGEOUS!! Dari starting ku suka abes se nan dia.. Nape org lain le manang? SAD SE.. :( Papepon,he's still the 2nd one! Still the best ok.. BOOHHOO

FIFTH STORY: Heard a lil story n it made me so sad n so pity. My school! *sad* Yesterday,ada lebih than 20 students kena sampok. The whole school panic abes. Kesian ustaz2,kelam kabut kasi azan sana sini tiap kali students kena sampok. HOW I WISH I COULD B THERE. Irsyadians,dont cry ok darlings. Everything will b fine. My sis was so damn phobia n she was so damn scared. OH GOD,plz save my school from any spirits. I LOVE MY SCHOOL SO MUCH. PLZ GOD =(

So long aint it? Boring? BAH. I have no mood rite now. Sad + happy + dissapoint + mix with other feelings. All i need is GOD rite now. Tabahkan hatiku dan selamatkanlah keadaan smua.. Aminn...

Pics at Grandma's house

2005-09-25T07:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday had a great fun at Grandma's house.

Met my grandma,uncles n oll dat.. Oh gosh.. I miss them lots. N not gorgetten,my darlings too! My grandma's frens are my darlings bcoz they are so cute & fun. Futhermore,they love to talk to me & i just love to entertain them. So in dis case,not only dat im turn to b so friendly with frens but old peoples & small kids too..

Sayang aku ngak? Sayang aku ngak?? BAHAHA..

K la serious sikit.. sek ketawa je.. Well,i reached at granma's house at 8pm ystrday. At dat time,they were just finished their Magrib prayer. WAT the heck! Penuh gile.. Nak jln pon tk bole.. So dok kat lua uma je.. PANAS da la satu hal,PACK lagi.. ADOOII.. k nevermind..

Oh den.. here are some pics taken..

Dats the gerl.. Menahan kepanasan!

Auk,Zie & Ica.. Helping and cam-whoring in the kitchen. (kat lua uma)

Ahaaa.. Ladies.. *cheers*

Me & my sweetheart Ida! The gorgeous & sexy lady!

The TWINNIES. Hamdiyah & Ria.

*peace no war*

Tangkap jambu sejap.

My uncle who took dis photo while i was busy chatting wif the gerls.

The men in da house.. SPOT! He was der.

Me & Zie melepak at grandma' room after sebok cuci pinggan mangkuk at the toilet!

As i told ya guys.. He was there.. Who was he?? Dat ex of mine. I noe dat he will surely turn up yterday & dats the reason y i didnt wan to go early.

*nak benci aku pon jgn step nak tunjok org uh eh*

wanna hear some story about yesterday?

Dat time i was in my grandma's room,waiting for the boys like shit to come out from dat auntie's room.. Nak tukar baju pon lambat.. GRRR.. While i was waiting,i heard sumthing..

Ahmad: Bik,pinjam toilet eh.. (he asked dat to my auntie as he wanted to go to my grandma's toilet in der room)

When he saw me there,he was like 'pusing balik' n told to my auntie..

Ahmad: Tkpe bik.. Mat pegi kat dapur.

Auntie: Eh sini ajela mat. Kat lua ade org cuci pingggan.

Ahmad: Tkpe bik tkpe..

Org kata kat lua tu tkle masok tu jgn degil uh.. Konon benci uh pndg muka aku per.

I went to my auntie's room to change to my T-shirt. Aku da masok baru nak masok bilik nenek aku.. ape ape uh..

U hate me? HAHAHA..

At 10.30pm,the boys beramai-ramai balik & naik van to overnite at Aliwal included him & my bro. Every Saturday nite always like dat. They overnite and slack at Aliwal St to practice their dzikir,kompang & so so so.. GOOD. Smoga suatu hari nanti anak2 ni smua membesar jadi seorg yg alim. AMIN.(especially dedicated to him)

Reached home at 1am. I was so damn tired. Tot of studying but i was ended SLEEPING. N yeah,slept till 7+am.

NEED TO STUDY!!

STUDY!!

TOMORROW IS MY MAJOR EXAM!!

MAIN GILE SAK AKU!!

BLAJAAAA!!!

-ku kenangmu d dlm doaku-

the fact is dat..im missing ya..

GDLUCK to my dearies

2005-09-24T12:00:00.000-07:00

Just reached home n i am so damn tired,hungry,stress & sleepy.
Still i had fun yesterday.

Reached school yesterday at 6pm n wore school tudung rite after i reached the school gate. *main gile* Sape se mau pakai tudung skola p causeway point.. Mcm balik umrah jek.. BUAHAHA.. Called dat Baby Shikin n proceed to the Musollah.

Reached Musollah n saw the gerls. Sec 5 gals' were studying while the Sec 4 gals' were relek one corner. I started my kecohness when step into the Musollah.. 'HALLO HALLO SMUA!!! Blablabla'

Ok ok.. I noe dat im crazy. But i noe dat u all miss me rite??

Ahaaa.. I noe.. N i miss ya too..

Had bbq but i didnt eat anything. Took pics here & there wif the gals. WE REALLY HAD FUN TOGETHA.

Study time at 9 till 10-30pm.
Only me,Zainab & 5 boys were der.
We asked alot of questions to Ustazah..
Tak pecaye masa berlalu dgn pantas skali.

Reached canteen at 10.40pm.
Saw Mira & Nooi..
They gave me a cake.. Its Noooii's bdae cake.
Thanks darlings. Atleast korg ingat jugak aku..

Lights off at 11.30pm. WAT THE HECK!!
Tak pena paham se guru2 tu smua.. Atleast give us some fun uh..
Gipon dorg last day per.. GGGRRLL.. I hate new teachers.
Sorry no offence.

The gals were so damn DEGIL.
Still didnt wan to sleep.
Made noise summore.
Me & Muzam..
Sleep togeda.. Hug hug.. Kick kick..
N LAUGH.

The teachers were pissed off by our attitude.
SHUT UP SHUT UP.
Some of der gals said 'shut up u motherfuc**r'.
WOOO.. Goodd..
Nasib baik dia tk dgr.. kalo dia dgr,tak ke ko rasa die kasi ko satu menampar??
HAHAHAH..

The gals woke up at 4am to take their wudhuk for qiyamullai.
Ku tkle solat.. So sambong tdo till 6.30pm.. By the time aku bangon,dorg lom abes solat.. Punyela lama..

SPHAGETTI!!!!
Dats for our breakfast.. yum yum.. FREE SUMMORE!

Slack slack slack..
Klua skola kul 10am..

TIRED TO THE MAX.
2 MORE DAYS TO MY STE.
First paper: Nahu & Tafsir.
OH GOD!!

My family went to my grandma's house oredi.
Tonite got sumsort like kenduri/dzikir there.
OH MAN.
PENAT ABES.
SO better study now n go to my grandma's house by my own.
AAARRGGHH.. No fren :(
Ala.. Clementi.. Bkn jaoh sgt..

Kat yew tee ade pasar malam uh..
Tapi lom pegi pon..
Teringin nak makan burger ramli..

OH LA LA LA..

P.s: Thanks aden for the chocs.
I promise dat i wont 'MERAJUK' lagi..
hehehehe..

Last day with my dearies.

2005-09-23T15:15:00.000-07:00

KREEEEKKKK...

Oh no.. Koyak koyak!!!

Ape nye koyak??

Slua akuu..

Jap jap.. aha..

Dia koyak lagi.. kat tengah2..

WOOPPSSS...

Sori.. -SENSORED- :p

Buahahahahaha..

I donno y.. Im becoming..

LAZY.

FAT.

Smua sbb ku skrg da byk mkn n then tido..

Da jadi pemalas gilerr..

HeLP Oh HeLp..

MaKiN nAk ExAM,mAkiN JaDi pEmaLaS..

HeLp oH heLP..

Today got no school..

I tried to study but it was all ended..

'SLEEPING WITH THE BOOKS'

Baaaahhh!! Bad Student!!

After i write dis post,must siap2.

To where?

Need to accompany my sis to Causeway Point.

She wants to buy her own digital camera.

Ya ya ya wateva. Aku tau ko pndai simpan duit.. tak cam aku..

So we blood sis rite?? So better jgn lokek eh.. Aku le pinjam kan??

Bole kan?? Bole kan?? Hahaha.. SyG kO n BuLu kEninG kO Tu ThE mAx. Haha.

From there,straight to school. Got Qiyamullai today.

Only 5 students from my classmates gonna turn for today's qiyamullai.

I wanna go just to celebrate the last nite with my SEC 4 IHSAN'S darlings.

I bet that we will have fun n WE GONNA CRY. :(

Besides dat,I will absolutely busy with my studies.

Thank God dat Ustazah Rohana will b there to guide me & my classmates.

So i take dis oppurtunity to ask questions to her..

Yayayaya..

So dearies..

Wanna noe sumthing??

JERAWAT aku makin bertimbul.

Tak ke ko rasa yg aku ni naik Fed-up??

GRRLL..

Tkpe.. dis is all due to STRESS.

Ok darlings & sweethearts,

will be back tomorrow.

Take care.

Anything just beep me..

*muacks*

Nerd makes me look ugly..

Dont u think so? Yahahaha.

New friend found..

2005-09-23T00:03:00.000-07:00

HEEYYAA..

I had fun just now with Hur Zaimah. Really i did. n IM HAPPY about sumthing =)

ATTENTION PEOPLE.

Ive got one new friend..
CLUE? Hmm.. Well..

She's Sweet.
She's Preety.
and..
She's sexy.. :))

Hold no grudges between each other yeah.
WE'RE FRIENDS arent we?
Hope u accept me as ur fren sincerely as i do.
No matter wat,let's forgive & forget about the past.
We live for tomorrow,not live for the past.
So we must go on with our life.
N thanks for accepting me as ur fren.
Although i noe dat im not dat perfect.
I'll try my best to be a great fren for u..

To be exact,FOR ALL MY FRENS.
I hope dat i can be the best for u all.
I treasure friendship.
Bcoz i dont wanna repeat my mistakes again.
I wanna be ur friend in ur good & bad times.
FOREVER.

GOODNESS.
Everthing settled.
N IM HAPPY.
HAPPY TO STUDY.
HAPPY TO SING.
HAPPY..
LALALA..

DARLINGS..
Tomorrow pegi qiyamullai eh..
korg takmo mcm2.. aku pegi psl korg tau.. issshh..
Tapi kan..
Dont mind eh lau aku bz study.
Korg tkmo tdo mlm tau..
Kite explore dat skul mlm2.. Amcm??
Mcm real je eh aku nie.. Padehal pengecot gile..
Hehehe..
Gonna meet u all tomorrow.
BUT SHIT!!!
I CANT SOLAT..
So aku rasa aku sambong tido bila time korg sebok2 bangon nak solat kul 3 pagi.
NIKMATULLAH!
HAHAHA.. :)

N now.. its study time.
Study till morning.
Switch on comp till morning too..
Bcoz ku ni pengecot..
So lau takot,le click sesape kat MSN.
Pandai kan akoo?
Hahaha..
K la smua.. slamat mlm..

N OPPSSS..
BTW..
This msg is speacially dedicated to my new fren..
Its 12am oredi.. N its 23 Sept..
HAPPY BDAE TO U!!
HAPPY BDAE TO U!!
HAPPY BDAE TO SASHA!!
HAPPY BDAE TO U!!
Smoga pnjg umur & Murah rezeki slalu.
Be happy always n wish u all the best for everything. *hugs*

Sorry again..

2005-09-22T15:26:00.000-07:00

Recognise dat poster?

It was 2 years back when we were UNITED as a class.

Dat poster meant alot to us.

It was Me & Mira's work..

Ya,i noe its quite ugly..

But it has a special place in my heart.

Love them.

Just now..

Bfore we left the school at 12pm,

we went to their class to say goodbye.

Bila smua da balik,

I was left with my 5 boys in their class.

I hugged and i cried but only for awhile coz tomorrow i will attend the qiyamullai programme with them. *c ya tomorrow*

Each time i hugged the gals,both of us cried.

Everyone.. Plz jgn nangis yerrr..

Sok kite meraung sama2..

I was so touched to hear the dialogue btwn them.

Mira & Fahmi apologised to each other.

Aden & Don too..

And so so so..

Made me sad :(

I dont noe y.. Today i felt really sad.. :(

Mintak maaf & mintak doa restu guru2..

Peluk ustazah..

MADE ME SAD.

Bfore we left the class,

kite berkumpul n bersalaman.

Kite promise yg kite uat well for our STE.

Our school must be the top school for STE..

N top student dari skola kite juga..

BOLE EH.. Yeah we can.

Came across sumone's blog.

It was her..

Used to have a lil misunderstanding btween us.

Read her post n i felt so sorry.

IM SORRY.

Just bcoz of me,u had a lil misunderstanding wif ur besties.

IM SORRY.

I tot dat u really hate me badly.

So when ur besties came n tagged to my blog,

i felt really 'pikir dua kali'.

U noe y? Bcoz i dont wan to create any problems with anyone.

But i realised..

how i treasure friendship n i wanna live in peace n happy with friends.

IM SORRY.

I felt so bad for hurting many peoples.

Last time when i was with him,

i wanna b ur fren..

i wanna appologise to u..

i wanna reply ur tags..

But he wont let me to.

Now when ive got dis chance,

I WANNA APOLOGISE TO U.

I DIDNT MEAN TO HURT U TILL U HATE ME DAT MUCH.

IVE GOT REASONS FOR ALL.

ONCE AGAIN,

IM SORRY.

When i was with him,people said dat i was stupid.

Bcoz i left my boy friends just bcoz of him.

All i need to do was.. STICK TO HIM.

All bcoz i love him n i wanna change him.

Now he hates me alot bcoz i left him.

Sorry again Ahmad.

I AM BAD =(

Friends always say..

*ko ni sabar sgt*

*ko ni setia sgt*

*ko ni korbankan sgt*

*ko ni lembut sgt smpai org ble pijak kepala ko*

bla bla bla..

Ya im stupid.. But its me..

I wont change.

And bcoz of the relationship with him,

IVE DONE MANY MISTAKES.

Especially to my friends.

IM SO SORRY!

N for her n her besties,

SORRY AGAIN.

Now i realised,

i need friends in my life.

They bring happiness to me.

Luklu mintak maaf kepada smua..

Specially to my boy friends.

Yg dulu ku pena tak layan korg.

ku pena sombong.

ku pena buang korg cukup2.

Tapi korg tau knape kan?

Aku mintak maaf banyak2.

Aku manusia.

Aku tak perfect.

-lau da syg sgt nk uat pe ksn..-

IM SORRY FOR ANY OF MY WRONG-DOINGS.

PRAY THE BEST FOR MY STE.

Till then,sorry again..

*urrgghh.. cant stop from saying sorry.. im bad.. totally bad*

SORRY.

SEDIH.

BERSALAH.

RASA KEHILANGAN.

Dats wat i feel rite now.

Just wait for tomorrow to come.

I MISS U.

I LOVE U.

IM SORRRYYY..

2003. UNITED.

I heart them..

Had fun together. 2003.

I feel dat nowadays i lost many peoples.

im sorry again.

4 more days to go..

major exam der.

gonna do my really best.

im sorry to everyone.

pray for me.

gonna miss u all.

I will cry

2005-09-21T16:21:00.000-07:00

KRRIINNG KRRIINNG.

At 6pm yestrday,received a call from my uncle. What he told me really made me panic. Nenek jatuh then terhentak almari then darah byk klua. GRANDMA!! :( I was so damn sad to hear dat. Thank God dat she's ok. They brought her to hospital n hope dat she's perfectly OK. God,please guide her. Love her :(

Looked after my siblings at home but they slept at as early 8+ pm. I was alone at the living room with books. I felt so BORED,felt like i LOST sumthing. Tak tau plak nape ble sms seseorg,said dat i miss him. BAH. Sounds crazy aint it? Smsed wif him till i got a chance talked to him on the phone for about 20 mins. I MISS DAT VOICE.. Urrgghh!! He told me dat he has a new gf.. *best solution for me to forget u*. Dat was wat he told me. Dont u think he is so unreasonable? INDEED,HE IS. Dia salahkan aku n so so so.. but i noe dat he loves me still. N yeah.. He told me dat at last. Watever happens,i just hope the best for him. Although he told me dat he's not serious with his new gerl,DO I CARE? NO. Go on wif ur life.

Received 2 msg at nite. One msg was from ARY,sweet msg =) n it made me smile. The other one was from RIO. Sad & Bad news received. He told me dat he has heart problem n he talked about 'DEATH'.. U wan to die dat soon?? COMMON uh eh. Plz uh. I noe dat u r so frustrated about wat had happened but plz plz plz.. Get well soon.

Today is like another day. Only dat we're totally busy asking questions to Teacher. One day left at school bfore we sit for our STE. I wonder y i miss my childhood life rite now. Tgk album tadi n terkenangkan zaman persekolahan dulu.. PRIMARY SCHOOL LIFE. Miss my friends.

Hear r some of the photos. Plz dont laugh aite :)

Used to be my best friends! STICK TO 5!

Hari Raya outing. Year 2001.

Hari Raya. Year 2000 at Aica's room.

Me wif the 2 Aisha. Heart them =)

Time ni punyelah irritating sbb Munirah & Aica non-stop ketawa.. haha

The bestie. Fiza,Aica,Jnab & Mun.

I MISS THEM. :(

So ive scanned pics dat we took on the REUNION 2005 day.

Take a look at it aitez.

EVERYONE HAS GROWN UP YA.

N tomorrow,I WILL CRY FOR SURE.

HUG & KISS TO MY DARLINGS.

THEIR GRADUATIONS DAY.

I WILL MISS THEM.

I WILL CRY.

N HUDA,THANKS FOR THE HUG.

I MISS U.

N TOMORROW,

I WILL CRY.

I WILL CRY..

:'(

Best wishes for me from sumone

2005-09-20T15:00:00.000-07:00

SLEEPY.
TIRED.
LAZY.
SLACK.

DATS MY DAY.

Done 100 Fiqh MCQ questions in class just now. The questions are basically ok,but some of the questions are quite complicated. I left blank for all ques from 'RIBA' topic bcoz i knew nuthing about dat topic. I just couldnt bother to open dat chapter. I wonder why but i just feel like i hate it. BAAHH! bole gitu eh.. haha..

Went back home alone by MRT. Bored bored bored but had fun in watching people's attitude.
Lalalalala..

Reached yew tee at 1pm n went straight to market. Dat mummy of mine uh.. GRRLL.. She asked me to buy sumthing.. I really hate to step in market with dis jubah of mine. Very the leceh.. NAH.. For the sake of my mom,bought the thing she asked me to.. wee.. anak tak durhaka.. haha..

I was so shocked when Cikgu Eznillah told me dat he had visited my blog yesterday. WOW. I was so damn shocked. If u come across dis blog of mine again,do tag yeah.. :)

IVE GOT A SMALL CARD BY SUMONE..
Weeeeeee..

WHO WHO?

No.. Ive got no crushes or admires huha.

From my Vice principal la..
:)

This is wat she wrote for me:
Dearest Luklu,
You have made such a tremendous progress that u ought to feel proud of ur achievements. May you continue to do just as well,if not better for ur coming STE exam. All the best!

Yeah yeah.. I will try my best n i dun wanna dissapoint my school.
Thanks for the wishes. :)

IM ALONE.
ALL ALONE AT HOME.
BORED.
WANNA SLEEP BUT I CANT.
COZ..

Im running out of times!
6 more days to go!
STUDY STUDY STUDY.

BAHHH!! :(

Bad & Good News

2005-09-19T19:53:00.000-07:00

I wont let anyone touch my teeth ever again.. NO NO. Dentist or not.. NO. It kills me alot.. GRRRLL.. Lied down infront of the dentist for about 2 hours. 4 dentists came to me n they looked at my teeth. LA LA LA.. My teeth is absolutely GOOD ok. Got only 2 small hole. BAH! No good. haha.

They had fun in NEL. Especially me,Mira & Hasif. VERY THE JAKON. hahaha.. Ish.. bkn slalu se naik NEL. Hahahaha.. Mira,Hairul & Hasif were having fun in the NEL. They acted as if they were the driver of the NEL. Mira was so damn happy wheneva she saw escalator.. Especially the straight escalotor n hasif acted dat 'MR bean' action. We laughed alot! hahaha.. An old pakcik scolded Hasif for stepping on wet floor. N OH NO. Wat a KEDI voice he had there! hahaha. ME & MIRA were the one who made dat silliest noises n jokes. Dat will keep as memories Mira.. Maybe dis was our last 'outing' together with school uniform. HEART U. I enjoyed the day with u.. *kiss u*

Next is about school..Reached school at 12.20pm.Before we left school dat morning at 8.15am,there was ISRAK MIKRAJ performance by Sec 3 students. GREAT PERFORMANCE. I like the part when the 'ahli neraka' hentam kepala then jatuh then hentak kepala.. WAT A RIDICULOUS!!

I've got 2 news today.. Good & Bad.Start with the good one first ya..The good one is dat.. My class can go back home at as early 12pm for 3 days(tomorrow till thurs) n a day holiday for us(friday).All due to our upcoming STE dis monday.They want us to get a well preparation for the exam by studying comfortably at home.BAH! Good good good but there's a bad part too..
Bcoz..

I cant celebrate my darlings' last day at school on dis Friday.How i wish i could join the last day with them.How i wish i could see them with school uniform for the last time.How i wish i could sing school song with them for the last time.How i wish i could see their tears.How i wish i could see they say goodbye to their classroom.How i wish i could hug n kiss them.

I noe dat i cant join them bcoz the main purpose for giving a day break for my class is to 'STUDY AT HOME'.If i join u guys,how would i answer to my teachers then?I can only see all u guys with school uniform for the last time on thursday.

Darlings,is this for real??Dat u all will leave me all alone by myself?IS THIS FOR REAL?Dat u all gonna leave dat school foreva??After more than 10 years there..IS IT FOR REAL??Dat i will miss u all badly??

Read Mira's tag n testimonials for me.Mira syg,u made me almost wanna cry.Kau tau kan,paling byk2 org dlm klas ko,ko yg paling aku rapat.Huda,u noe wat? U HAVE BEEN SUCH A GREAT fren for me.U noe dat sumtimes i can easily smile wheneva i c u around?

Shikin,Muzam,Nooie,Seha,Azlin,Don.. ALL!!!!I LOVE U ALL....GONNA MISS U SO MUCH!!

U noe wat i feel rite now?Air mata aku da smpai d penghujungnya..N u noe wat i can do rite now?I can do nuthing..Just pray the best for u all..N..

MENGHITUNG HARI..

Another boring day

2005-09-18T14:33:00.000-07:00

Another boring day for me.

SO MENDAK.

At home wif my mom.

My dad went to kenduri.

Sis went to clean up at East Coast.

Bro overnite at Aliwal with the boys to practice kompang. (He's there too.. BAH!)

Bored.. Bored.. Bored..Spend my whole day at home wif the books.. haha.

I just hate wheneva im in dis situation bcoz dis is the time

when i started to miss sumone..

My fingers r totally 'gatal' when c dat hp of mine..

Wanna msg him..

Hmm.. No.. Ya.. No..BAH! No luk.. Forget him ok..

Msged him yersterday. Asked him abt his big exam.

I was so shocked bcoz he sounded very friendly.

Love it :)

But then,he's now lacking on his studies.

*aku da tkde minat nak blaja*

I noe.. He accused me for dat.

SO KITE BERPERANG kat sms.

Hahaha.. Oh ma ma.. Haha. So lets proceed to the next topic.

My sis joined Ramadhan Youth Challenge.

How i wish i could join them.GGRRRLLL..

Heard a lil comment from my bestie about last yr RYC.

She said 'VERY FUN'.

She met alot of new friends especially from 6 madrasah in Spore..

She went to Rumah anak yatim.. Org2 tua.. N so so so..

Buat bubur.. N QIYAMULLAI..So fun aint it??

Exam is coming nearer..

I will sit for another big exam rite after my STE.

*uurrgghh*Exam for wat??

To noe whether im capable to take my O level nxt yr or not.

Im totally busy with my studies..

*how i wish i could join the RYC*ARRGGHH..

Today is Sunday. Tomorrow is Monday.It reminds me dat i still have a week more before my STE.Must ask more questions to teachers n cant slack n sleep in class as i used to b.Oh gosh.. Masa berlalu dgn cepat sekali..

N dis week is the most 'SAD WEEK' ever for me.. Bcoz..

My darlings will say bye-bye to me dis friday.They are SEC 4 IHSAN.They r everything for me bcoz we've shared joys n tears together for all dis while.Although im not part of them but i used to.

To them..

Dearies.. Hope u all do well in ur N level. Plz come back to take ur O LEVEL nxt yr wif me. U noe im not dat close to my classmates. For me,they're not my members. Smarties always enjoy their life with books. I enjoy my recess n free time wif u guys. U r part of me.. I love u guys.. Forget me not aitez.. Nanti korg da klua,aku sorg2.. Dulu lau aku ade prob,aku slalu dtg pat korg.. Ni skrg HOW? I WILL MISS U GUYS LIKE HELL MAN.

Still ingat bila aku da tk sama klas ngn korg. Aku melalak kat paha mira.N mira just touched my head n said,'do ur best in STE luk'.

My life is beautiful when u all come to my life.HEART U ALL.

K stop. Dun wanna cry. Just wait for Friday arrives. I will cry.ABSOLUTELY.We're frens from primary 1..Skrg smua da nak graduate..All has grown up..

OK OK OK STOP.Takmo cry uh Luk.. Cengeng na.. haha..Ok daddy's back.He bought something for me to eat.. AHA..Im starving rite now.

Wehee.. Tomorrow gonna meet MR DENTIST.*gigi gigi.. gigi ku putih.. tiap hari menggosok gigi.. lalalala...*

Headache!!

2005-09-17T22:14:00.000-07:00

NAHU.

IKRAB.

SARAF.

Dat was wat he tot me just now. Thanks Hafees. Dats the reason y i respect Aljunied Student very much bcoz their Arabic & Nahu is so damn fantastic.

At 4,met Hafees at Yew Tee. *Panas gilenye ari* So we choosed Yew Tee Food Centre for the rite place to Study. He taught me very perfectly. -Fun.Great.Enjoy- dats the rite word to describe the day wif him.

Revised book 1 & book 2 of Nahu Al-Arabiy. Book 3? BAH! Alot man to cover. So we stop rite after we finish book 2.. Haiyyoo.. Nahu is the main key to make perfect for all.. Wanna noe why i said like dat? Bcoz if ur NAHU is poor,u will have difficulty in creating words. Nahu is important but it makes me sick.. uurrgghh.. Very complicated.

Hafees.. He makes my day. Loves to bully me by doing all those IKRAB n all dat.. haha.. He helps me alot in my studies. He's funny too.. Bcoz there was a part when sumone called him. He was so shocked when he noes dat call was actually from MUIS. *muka panic abes* Hahaha..

Finished at 7 pm then went to lepak2 n talk2 till 9pm.. Shared alot of stories n we laughed alot. Hehe.. He's a great fren la.. Thanks alot ya..

After dis need to revise TARIKH. Urrgggghhh.. Dat subject is so damn complicated. *Paling byk2,ni la yg uat aku headache*. As u noe dat TARIKH is HISTORY of Islam.. It gives me..

HEADACHE!!

Pecah kepala se.... GRRLL..

Need to memorise the names,places,dates & alot..

Perang itu ini..

Nama da la pnjg2..

Nama negeri n tempat lagi.. Jgn cakap.. Punyela pelik..

N different book got different opinion.

GGRRRRRLL..

Headache sak..

Although dis is the only subject dat can use Malay words,

Still it is the worst one.

HAIYO HAIYO..

Tapi takpe.. Im a strong gal.. Hiakhiak.. K dearies,gudnite aitez..

-Countdown: 9 more days to my Major Exam-

10 more days to go

2005-09-16T14:02:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 6 am just now. Tot of getting ready for school but i was not feeling dat well. Told my parents n they gave a straight NO. So i said dis to them..

'Bole la.. kat skol pon bkn blaja.. Slack abes.. Blaja sendiri je.. Buang masa.. Might as well dok uma blaja'.

They answered 'Ok n i will call n check on u'.

BAH. GOOD. Continue my sleep rite after solat.

Woke up at 10am. Chat wif dat dimple guy *ahmad* haha.. Had fun chatting wif him till aku khayal.. Then i realised.. 'No Luk.. Stop Stop.. Bangon!! Mkn!! Mandi!! Blajaa!!!'

So i stop.

Well,nuthing special today. Only dat i left all by myself alone at home.

Tot of going to qiyamullai at school tonite. Too tired la.. *konfem bsk lau alek uma konfem tdo smpai mlm sbb penat sgt* so better not..

N HAFEES!! when r u going to teach me NAHU?? I need u man! U noe dat i need u to teach me all those stuffs.. 10 more days to go.. Nahu is my first paper.. Tomorrow or today puleezzz...

Ur NAHU totally perfect for me.. Respect u for dat..

*ni la nasib aku.. pakkal la tutor aku da g mesir,lau tdk,konfem aku da stick ngn dia smpai STE aku abes.. apsl la ko g cepat2..la la la la*

Oh wait.. dis is specially dedicated to my darling Aisha Jaws..

happy bdae to u darl. Smoga pnjg umur & Murah rezeki slalu.. Happy2 with ur guy aitez.. U r part of me n i love u sweetheart.. Muaaccks.. Wehhee~~

Kiss to her.. Lube u honey..

Unexpected Sms

2005-09-15T19:02:00.000-07:00

4.30am:

'RRIINNGG!!' Oh gosh. The alarm was so irritating. Tot of continuing my dream after dat..

But i saw sumthing at my hp..

i reveived one sms from sumone.

UNEXPECTED SMS.

So it was him.

AHMAD.

The one who used to be mine *2 yrs*.

This was wat he wrote:

'Memang aku bencikan kau..Tpi sebenci2 aku kat kau pun,kau ttp org yg pertama aku cinta..Sblum aku lupe num hp kau dan sblum aku tukar hp n juga sempena nk menyambut ramadan,aku nk mintak maaf atas smua kesalahan aku kat kau..Halalkan smua dan segalanye yg telah aku amek dari kau..Aku tau aku ni sapa..Sgala impian telah jadi mimpi..Dulu aku la yg kau harapkan tuk beri sokongan tuk test kau semasa kte bersama,skarang giliran aku plak uat exam besar aku tetapi tanpa kau disamping aku..Tpi tkpe..Aku trime ni smua..Kau pun da puas ngn pilihan perjalanan kau ni..Hope u wish me all e bes ah..Enjoy ur life n juga ngn laki baru kau n lastly aku mintak ampun dan maaf. Bye.' Sent: 03:06:03am 15-09-2005

N i was stunned when receive dat msg.

One month has passed without a msg or call.

Suddenly he msg dis morning. Wat a day!

So i reply his msg..

'Aku pon mintak maaf byk2 sbb aku tau yg aku org yg plg byk dosa dgn kau. Halalkan detik2 sejarah kte dulu walaupn tdk membuahkan apa2 hasil. Walaupon kte sudah berjauhan n idop dgn kehidupan msing2,aku doakan smoga kau berjaya dlm pperiksaan kau juga. Dan harap kau doakan trbaik utk STE yg menentukan masa dpn aku juga. Kau tau kn,kau org yg plg byk beri smangat kat aku slama 2 tahun ni. Wish aku e best gak. K la,harap kau hapi2 dgn kehidupan kau. Jgn salahkan aku je keatas prpisahan ini tapi kau kena tgk atas kesalahan kau juga. Ok take care n gdluck. Bye'. Sent: 04:38am 15-09-2005

I was totally 'KEKOK' bila bebual mcm tu..

KAU & AKU.

2 yrs back when we became best friend.

So dis is wat i wanna tell him..

Sorry for hurting u dat much. I noe dat i was the one to b blamed. I left u all by urself. U tried to adapt wif ur life but i noe u cant bcoz dats wat i feel rite now. We used to have each other.. U had me n i had u.. But dear ahmad,everthing has changed rite now..

U noe how difficult i am after we split in our own ways?

I noe dat its difficult for u too.

Bcoz all dis while u were all depending on me.

U noe how much i miss you?

Miss those moments when we fite..

then i cried?

Miss those moments when we were joking around..

till both of us fall to the ground?

Miss those moments when we..

URRGGHH..

I juz miss those moments when we're togetha.

I realised..

U & me..

have our own separate ways rite now..

'kite da tak mcm dulu.. mengejar impian bersama'

Smua nye da jadi kenangan..

I regret.

how i wish i could be ur fren like we used to be?

u used to b my great bestie.

u were there to hear me out.

WE WERE BEST FRIENDS.

dat was 2 years back.

Everthing changed when we became couple.

CHANGED.

To friend changed to ma guy.

CHANGED.

Now,he is still keep in touch with the others.

My sis n my relatives.

But not me.

Although i was the first one he knew yet the others still there in his heart,as his friends.

NOT ME.

He hates me n doesnt wan to b my fren.

Ahmad,i juz hope dat u can change. U noe i love to see when u achieve sumthing in ur life? *hey,ingat lagi tk when u we were so damn happy bile first2 amek lesen motor then beli motor n so so so* i used to be the happiest gal to c dat smile of urs. :)

dat was all in past.

All i wan is rite now..

Hope dat u will find a better gal than me.

Hope dat u will succeed in wateva u do..

Hope dat u will b happy with ur new life..

Hope dat..

u can accept me..

AS UR FRIEND.

*but i noe its hard for u to accept dat*

Take care n hope u r doing well in ur NS life.

U used to hug me when u tell me the gd news *yeah yeah! abg dpt police!!*

So sorry sbb tak dpt bersama selama-lamanye.

Hope u do well in ur exam so dat u can b at home when ramadan.

*sorry baju raya tk dpt sama2 lagi*

The moral of da story is dat..

Dun ever2 go relationship with ur fren especially with ur gd fren or watsover..

it hurts u too muchh..

trust me.. *CRYING*

-Yg berlalu sudah lepas. Yg akan dtg jgn melepas-

-doaku untukmu-

Another slack day

2005-09-14T17:46:00.000-07:00

My day today is totally..

SLACK.

As i told before..

we only come to school to have our own self-study or ask questions to teachers when in doubt.. So we slack all the day until STE comes.. Woohhoo..

At as early 8.30am just now,we got very GOOD NEWS.

They showed STE percentage result from the past year batch till this year(prelim + STE). We looked at the differences. WALLLAUU..

Ustaz & Ustazah were so happy with our result.

Because.. We scored high in ALL SUBJECTS

berbanding dgn tahun2 dulu..

N we..

promised dat we will do our best..

and.. to have top student comes from our school.

For the prelim result,the top points gained from my classmate was 8.

She got Grade 1(more than 90) for 6 subjects and Grade 2(80+) for 1 subject.

Tapi yg lain pon not bad se.. *marha marha*

Keep it up guys. We can do it betta yeah..

Hope so..

Kite tanak hampakan skola..

Mereka mengharap sgt kat kite utk dptkan

TOP STUDENT.

and

TOP SCHOOL.

For STE 2005.

Ustaz were once said dis to us 'Tolong ustaz yer? Ustaz harapkan sgt kepada kamu smua.. Ustaz doakan utk smua. Kadg2 bila ustaz solat sujud,sehingga ustaz sebut 21 nama dari kalian semua.. Tolong yer..'

We were totally touched by his words n we really nid to do our best!!

Just now watched Video about 'Kisah yg ditempuhi Nabi Muhd sebelum dan selepas menerima wahyu'.

Only the 21 of us..

FOR WAT??

For our STE la deng.. muahaha..

Ade part yg betul2 sedih bila org islam diseksa n all dat..

N THE ACTORS..

smua nye hensem belaka!! aww~

Org arab + org putih..

4 jam dok depan TV..

uat aku rimmaaass...

hahaha..

STILL,i enjoyed the Video so much.

Dats all about today.

No MSN before 12am yer Luklu..

'ko kena blaja tau.. takmo macam2 eh'.

BUAHAHA.

DaddyS BACK

2005-09-13T20:09:00.000-07:00

DADDY'S BACK!! woohhuu..

I was hearing song when suddenly my sis shout.

She screamed.. BAH! Crazy people..

So went out from my room..

N saw my dad!

Rushed to him.. Hugged & Kissed to him.

Wallauu.. Miss him liox.

6 ari menanggung rindu.. WOOHHOO..

Thank God sebab ibu tak melalak mcm tuari time my dad nak pegi..

alahai.. touching nye.. ahaha..

He bought Tafsir(Quran translation in arabic) for me.

THANKS DADDY. *dats wat i wan* :)

Bought some stuffs..

He talked alot..

About dat event..

I juz wanna cry..

Bcoz i just cant wait to go there..

*must start saving rite now yeah..*

Next year ya mummy.. We must go.. GGRR..

Beratus ribu org disana..

Bergegar dengan alunan dzikir..

Mix with para ulama'.

N..

will b able to meet the one who gives 'LUKLU ULHAMDIYAH' as my name.

WANNA GO WANNA GO.. :(

-count down to STE: 13 days-

Bingit.. STRESS

2005-09-12T18:26:00.000-07:00

BINGIT.

STRESS.

UUUUUUURRRRRRRRGGGHHH!!!!

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!! GRRRRLLL..

I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!

Mum keeps nagging.

Bro keeps fighting wif me.

Sis keeps irritating.

ALL JUST SHUT UPPP!!

UURRRGGHHH..

Plz la eh,esp to my bloody hell bro..

DA TAU BESERAK KAN UMA,TOLONG KEMAS UH EH SIAKKK!!!

kau tau betapa aku pantang tgk uma berserak mcm sarang ba**??

OIITTSSS... uma tkde babu uh eh... DAMN U..

n kalau org marah,ko jgn nak step mcm gangster uh nak marah aku balik uh eh..

apslll??? nak tumpuk aku?? FU** O** Uh ehh!!

N to my sister,jgn nak step uat aku bingit uh eh.

P tlg uat keje uma sikit UH!! MAUT UH!!

BPK KORG BERDUA NAK BALIK TAU,so jgn buang tebiat uh eh.

GILE GILE GILE UH AKKKKOO..

i donno y..

i feel like im so sensitive nowadays..

maybe..

im so stressed up..

or maybe..

i need sumone to talk to..

but who??

i feel like crying..

wat happen to me se..

P.s: to dat sumone,im so sorry sbb da uat prangai 2 hari ni.. Im bad rite? I NOE.

*crying*

*LEAVE ME ALONE!!!*

-book is all i want rite now. *im so stressed up-

2 more weeks to go

2005-09-11T18:06:00.000-07:00

2 MORE WEEKS TO GO

SEE THAT TITTLE FOR TODAY??

*Masya allah Masya allah... Takle angkat takle angkat.. tgk jam tgk jam.. da makin dekat makin dekat*

2 WEEKS MORE TO GO FOR MY STE!!

Citot punye Luklu.. Masih boleh berseronok lagi ekh..

So guys,i will not updating my blog dat often. KINDA BZ with my studies.. GGRRRR..

Till then,anything juz call me..

Okok.. Bfore dat.. Lets see the new pics for the couple..

COUPLE??? BAHHH.. Nahh..

He's my long-lost fren.. Had a great time ystrday wif him.

Talked.. Picss.. WOOHHOO.. Wonderful..

When r we going to meet again ya?

*sigh*

The uninvited head..

Aahhaa.. Much betta..

Woohhooo.. LUBE HIM.. ops.. WAHAHA

TILL THEN,I WILL UPDATE THE REST OF THE PICS TOMORROW AITE..

Thanks for the great day

2005-09-11T02:23:00.000-07:00

I MISS THEM. I LOVE THEM. BAH!

I had a great fun with my frens just now. Met with my primary school friends. WOWW.. They were totally changed!

Well,here it goes..

Darling Mira was the first person who i saw rite after i reach there. Ok ok dear,u look so cute in dat aitez *saje je nak amek ati dia*.. :) She brought me to a group of boys first. I just cant see their face clearly bcoz i wasnt wearing my spec. Stupid me.. N oh so.. Saw each of the boys face. I JUST CAN BELIEVE MY EYES when i saw dis 2 guys.. Oh gosshh.. Wanna noe who r they?

First: Azzahir. It was almost 8 years since we last met n suddenly saw u there. Oh gosh. U look so like matured with ur moustache n all dat.. Hahaha.. Still loyar burok to the core.. *Org Mekkah byk ckp wwooo*

Second: Saw KHAIRUL NORDIN. Fuyyooo.. Da 4 Tahun tak jumpe. N we're fren from K1.. Fuuyyoo.. So long rite? He's tall n quite handsome too bcoz he looks like hindustan. Wallaauu..

After dat.. Amira brought me to the gals group.

WALAAUUU.. Cant believe dat they're ALJUNIEDIANS.

Ishmah,Aminah,Halimah & Aiman.

They r so preety babe! :)

Proceed to Lau Pasat to rilek n eat. So ni la name2 yg ikot..

Boys:

Azzahir,Khairul Nordin,Khairul Ummam,Zulqarnain,Azhar Amir,Adli,Syahrizal,Hasif,Farhan.

Girls:

Luklu,Amirah,Aini,Seha,Ishmah,Aiman,Aminah,Halimah,Hajar,Zuliana,Aidah,Atiqah,Yasmin n Suriana.

More than 20 peoples.. woohho

Lek2 till 6 pm..

Mira with her guy,Aminah & Aiman went back home.

The rest proceed to Merlion.

WOW..

Pictures here n there.

Stories here n there.

I enjoyed the moments with them.

Start2 memang mendak.

But after we reached at esplanade roof-top,it was so damn fun!

Took photos with them.

Gelak gelak gelak.

But then Aidah,Atiqah n Yasmin went back home.

At 8+,dat ah beng came down..

Who who??

Inamul Hassan.. Muahaha..

Fun liox. Abe kat bwh tu ade band summore.

Music all along. Muahaha

Then Miss Zuraidah turon. Fuyyoo.. *Dat teacher rox to the core tapi da outz dari dat skul 4 yrs ago*

N we talked alot too.

About school n so many stuffs.

The gals were hungry so we went to Marina Square to eat.

Said BYEBYE to Zulqarnain.

He's a great guy.. MISS HIM LOTS.

Ate at Burger King. It was 9.30pm.. So better rushed back home.

On the way to MRT,took ALOT PICS with sumone..

DAT INAMUL HASSAN.

Urggghhh

Very cerewet se amek gmba..

Hehehe.. But very sweet though..

Reached MRT n said gudbye to the others.

Kissed,hugged.

I MISS THEM *bila agi nak jumpe*

Took the same MRT with Halimah,Ishmah,Rizal,Inamul n Azhar.

Suddenly sumone OFFERED ME.

Offer ape sak??

k uh psl dia yg suro ako blang kat blog nie,so aku blg uh ekh.. :p

Turon Khatib dgn dia..

Sape tu?? Diam dar. Lom abes story.

Talked n talked.

Then da smpai kat blok die.. Fuyyoo.. Cepatna..

N it was almost 11pm! BAH!

Okok..

So he sent me back home *he offered uh.. so i lyke,ok ok..*..

By wat...??

Nak tau?? *k la san,aku blg je ekh? muaahah*

By BIKE.

wooohhooo... Good journey n very nice bike! I LOIKE.

Thanks ah beng! Muahaha..

N here r some photos taken. Complete set of pics will coming soon. Anything,juz beep me..*woohoo*

The WONDER auk..

The gals nga bersembang..

Azhar tangan tak tau diam smpai idong terkopek.

Me & rizal.. WOOHHOO.. very sweet aint it??

Luklu mkn tk ingat dunia..

Luklu,Halimah & Ishmah.. *walaupon kite lain skola,kite ttp kwn kan?*

The girrllsss...

N dats the guy who sent me home. Thank u. Lube u lar! :)

So well,bila lagi ni nak REUNION??

I want MUNIM.

AICA.

ARIF.

SYAHRUL.

MUNIRAH.

ALOTTT.

To come down n uat lawak bodoh n have fun cam dulu!

Urgghh..

Kte mesti uat k.. :)

Till then,14 more days to go for my STE.

So,marah aku lau msk msn je slalu!!

aku da lemak abes je nie..

k lupe u all..

sweet memories.

muacks muacks

New skin

2005-09-09T18:50:00.000-07:00

Well,how is my new skin?? Comment plz.. It is not perfect rite? But i LOIKE.. :)

Woke up n received msg from bro fad. He said goodbye n asked me to take care of myself. N do send his regards to his frens tomorrow. Da NS se.. Sejap je mase berlalu.. N he gonna stay there for 3 weeks.. Tak balik se... ARMY uh.. feewwiitt..

Still remember those moments when me n my ex celebrated from morning till nite,one day before he left me for his NS. Spent the whole day just for me till his family was so angry at dat time. Hehe.. I cried when its time to say gudbye. He hugged n said 'jgn nangis,nanti abg pon ikot nangis'. BAHH.. Itu kenangan. Now kehidupan baru.. I wish dat u will b happy with ur new life. Juz wanna let u noe dat, 'Ku akan selalu kenangmu di dlm doaku'.

NAHHH.. Just change the topic..

So today is NAFIS's bdae. Tried to call him at home but he's out with frens. BAH. Cepat uh alek uma,aku nak wish nie.. Muahahaha.. *smoga pnjg umur & murah rezeki ekh*

About TOMORROW... Just cant wait to meet my long-lost frens!! I MISS U ALL..

*Tak sabar nak tunggu ari esok* Hope u all can make it. The more the merrier.

Received sms frm afiqah n she asked me to study. WUHUHUH.. Yes darling,thanks for concerning abt my studies.

YOOUU.. YESSHHH U... If u see me online at msn bfore 12am,MARAH AKU K.. Supposed to study though..

Till them,heart u all.. Meet ya all tomorrow. :)

p.s: anything just call me. tkmo sms au.. budget..

Im becoming so lazy

2005-09-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

Slept at 3 am last nite.. GRRRR.. Wanna noe why? I cant sleep because i was so hungry. I wanted to go to kitchen for some snacks or wat but NAAHHH.. Aku ni pengecot gile.. Muahaha.. So stucked in the room n sat infront of the comp..

Woke up at 6.15am n saw dat my sis were ready to go out n suddenly she shouted 'OITT BANGON UH,DA LMBT SAK'. I was like blur.. Jengjeng.. Suddenly i remember dat i was totally late.. Urrgghh.. Rushed to the toilet n went out from home at 6.40am. Perot lapar abes nye.. *Tahan jek*

Sent my father to airport with my sis by MRT. I was so damn sleepy n hungry but had a great time in sharing stories with my daddy. Reached airport n rushed to Burger King to have our breakfast. Fuuhhh.. Lega sikit. Met my relatives there.. I saw 'HIS' relatives too.. WOWW.. Suddenly saw this 2 cute little baby. N dats baby's father kissed 'HIS' grandma's cheeks. So he's the abg ajit dat he used to talk about. Very cute family indeed.. :)

Its time to say good bye.. Kissed my dad.. Said good bye to the others.. 'His' dad,uncle,auntie n grandma went there too.. To where?? SURABAYA.. for what?? To attend big dzikir event there..

I WANNA GO I WANNA GO.. Mix with hundred thousands of people.. Mix with para ulama' n so so so. *Smua da gi,aku sorg je yg lom gi* blluurrgghh..

Then proceed to Orchard rd with Papat,Zizie,Picca,Niyah & Ibu Yet to jln2. Ku takde mood memandangkan ngantok. At 12 gitu,kite smua naik bus nak alek. I was so damn sleepy n waallaauu.. Tidur smpai tk sedarkan diri.. Yg ku tau,Papat tdo kat bahu aku.. Buahaha.. *HEAVY HEAD*

Reached Zizie's house n slept. Tkle angkat se ngantok. Then klua dari sane kul 4.30pm n played pool at Clementi.. Reached home at 6.30pm..

Friends keep calling to confirm abt this Saturday's Reunion. I just cant wait to meet all of them. Miss to meet the sexy voice,who else if not dat aica.. hehe.. Miss to meet dat cute guy,who else if not Munim.. Miss to meet dat big godzilla,who else if not Syazwani... :P

I JUST CANT WAIT TO MEET ALL.

Woohhhoo..

Okok.. Someone's getting angry rite now.. Ary,plz dont get angry. I will call u aitez. Sowwiiee.. Takmo marah2..

Memorable day

2005-09-08T01:20:00.000-07:00

'Kite janji,kite akan berkwn smpai mati,smpai mampos'

We used to say dat as our pledge. 9 months have passed. Left all those memories like shit. Dont care. Dont bother.

We.. used to share our joys together. A problem means everyone's problem.
Cry.. Laugh.. Smile.. Keep dat as memories.
It was so unseparable friendship.

ME,the bloody hell useless gal had spoilt everything.
It was all my fault till they splited in their own ways.
It was all my fault.

I tot,i will never be their friend again. I tot dat the friendship has all ended. But they didnt bother about the past. They love me still like they used to be.

Today..
After 9 months have passed.
They met n had fun.
Although the 4 of us didnt manage to come,
i was glad dat the 8 of us had very wonderful time just now.

Fadhli with his songs.
Rio with his jokes.
Azar with his big butt.
Hur with her shout voice.
Adik with her loud laughter.
Picca with her pose.
Nana with her laughing machine.
Auk with her camera.

THEY ROX TO THE CORE.
Heart them lotz.

We went to esplanade,Merlion,Spore River n Mcdonald.
Wallaaauu..
So happening..
Although it was only 7 hours,but we enjoyed the day.

To Fad,do take care of urself.
Mulut jaga bila da kat NS tu.
We gonna miss ya so much.

N when r we going out again?
I WANNA FULL SET OF US.
12 persons.
I MISS U ALL..
Thanks for the great day.
heart ya all..

Here is the some of our photos. If u wanna see the full set of photos,ask me personally. Coz we took 52 photos.. Woohhoo..

The moments when they had fun.

The girls were touching-up after the lunch.

waiting for the sunset..

The guys were smoking! BAH!

Cheeersss!!!

Fadhli with his angles.

Long-Lost Friends

2005-09-06T23:54:00.000-07:00

Found sumthing just now. He called me and we talked for almost an hour. Mengulit Kenangan Silam.
I MISS IT ALOT.

He,was once became my partner in handling class. When is it? 7 years back. We used to be monitor and monitress for the class. He went out from school in Year 1999 n didnt meet him again till now.
Miss ya AZZAHIR.

4 years of friendship still remains there. He went to Mesir.
N i just salute him lotz man.
Bcoz.. He takes more than 20 subjects.
Fuyyooo..
Me,myself take 15 subjs still cannot cope.
He studies geography n so so so.
IN ARABIC.
Walllaaauuu weeyyy..How can u manage to do dat. Oh god!

We talked about many stuffs. He told me when the first time he stepped in Mesir.
What type of fren he mixes around with. WOW. N his arabic is so damn fluently.
I LOIKE.
We talked about old classmates n teachers.
He can only recall some of them.
Thanks for remembering me for how many years se..

He made a plan.
Dat he wants to meet his old frens before he's going back to Mesir.
Will be back again here in 4 or 5 years time.
WAAUUU..
n i juz like his suggestion.

But..
I cancelled the plan.
But I want to make REUNION for Primary School Classmates.
Our long-lost fren.
*Yang mana sembunyi tu,meh jom klua jap.. kite jumpe alek.*
RINDU.

How i wish i could meet them.. esp the one yg kat Spore..
Inamul hassan,Zul Boymen,Mohd Yaakob,Khairul Nordin,Khairul Azahar,Muhaymin,Aisha Mutallib,Munirah Syahir,Siti Hajar,Siti Aminah,Ishmah Hashim,Fadhli,Hafizah Lasiman,Arif Taib,Syahrul,Mun'im,Diana Pasuni,Halimah,Jabbar,Azahar Amir n ALOT.

N for those yg kat luar negeri,I MISS U ALL TOO.
Iqbal Shakila,Iqbal,Fattah,Ibrahim,Zahir,Syahid,Qushairi,Lokman n lasty,
MASYADI!!!!(he used to b my bestie)

HEY!!! We want to do REUNION dis SATURDAY.
VENUE: City HALL
TIME: Undecided

FOR PRIMARY SCHOOL BADGE.
Those..
duduk for internal PSLE.
who slack lua toilet.
treat teachers like shit.
who buat lawak bodoh.
who yg takkan lupa smpai bile2.
who act like monkey in class.
who makan kuaci kat dlm kelas.

Turon yok ramai2.

Konfem kecoh.

BOOOHHOO

6 more papers to go

2005-09-06T17:00:00.000-07:00

WWOOHHOO..

Today was great.

Great Great.

AIM 80 marks and above for today's oral.

Plz,i hope so.

Plz,if not grade 1..

Atleast give me grade 2..

Grrrrr...

Well,today's oral was superb.

Excellent to me.

Although i noe dat i was not totally perfect in it,

but dat confident..

stayed in me..

till i went out from the Dewan.

COOLNESS.

N sorry for all ya.

Bcoz my voice was so damn loud.

Till the others got distracted by my recitation.

SO WAT?

dats my future ok.

Muahahaha.

While waiting for the others,

to go balik sesame,

i sat one corner.

n suddenly..

saw AMINAH.

the one who used to be my bestie in primary school life.

She is so preety n sweet :)

aww.. i miss the 'gang' man.

we~ used to be the 'minah toncet group'.

buahaha..

talk talk talk..

like we used to be..

suddenly she asked..

'ko tunggu sape? fahmi ekh??'

WALLAUU..

dat was so long since i broke up with him.

He's now with my fren ok.

they're my fren.

no no..

dont ask me dat ques again plz.

2 yrs oredi lor..

so long se.. hahaha

So well,nuthing special today.

Tomorrow will b the great one :)

n acip,thanks for the chocs.

Ferrero rocher.

i love the wrapper.

thanks.

so lovely.

n aden..

hate eeuuu..

*bluek*

Quran has over.

Now,6 more papers to go..

hiakhiak.

Need to do well next time

2005-09-05T20:10:00.000-07:00

So here i come. Story about my today's life.

Met up the boys at Yew Tee Mrt at as early 7.30am. Aden n acip.

We saw 3 tudung gals in the MRT. One of them brought guitar. Wallau weeyy.. N the boys were so damn naughty. Kacau pompan je keje. Muahaha... Jeng kejeng,met Zuliana at Dover. We laughed alot like it was our's MRT. MRT pack nak mampos. Tak duduk se kite..

DING DONG... PAYA LEBAR.

Itulah masanya bila satu2 nye ckp: 'EH!! kite da smpai!! Urrgghh! Betol per nie?? Aku takoott!!'.

MUAHAHAHA.. n dats the reality dat we need to accept.

Reached Madrasah Wak Tanjong n saw many students n teachers. N me,'OH GOD,IS THIS FOR REAL??'

Bodoh nye Luklu.. betol la... *Ini bukan cobaan,ini betul2*

I mean,is this real?? The real STE?? Oh gosshh.. My future?? BAHH..

N kite smua 'dikandangkan' di sebuah klas. Total got 3 classes. The students were so panicked when their names have been mentioned. N dat was when i just cant believe...

Ustaz: Man Luklu Ulhamdiyah?

URRGGHH.. dats my turn!! Dgn muka selamba aku,ku klua dari kelas smbil melambai kwn2 ku.. *BYE BYE* n they,LAUGHED while seeing my face. U think its funny is it? Aku da menggigil.. mcm nak kena khatan gitu.. HUHUHUHU

Sat beside one Arabian guy,WALLAU. Cute face summore.. No Luk,focus to ur notes...

Astaga,maksiat.. hahaha

Proceed to the Dewan.

First impression: CHEYDEBAH!! totally big n got air-con summore. I LOIKE. muahaha.

The invigilators were so damn friendly but one thing dat i hate.

*They talked in arabic fastly n fluently*

N me,always asked them to repeat the question..

'afwan ustazah,mumkin an a'id??'

FUH. ARABIC ALL THE WAY.

n here was the topic.

For reading without syakkel(baris): Bergaul bebas antara pompan & lelaki.

'ihtilad ar-rijal wan ni-sai''

Many mistakes. BULLSHITS.

n for conversation: Penjagaan keatas kesihatan.

'inayah as-sihhiyah'

GOOD.

BAD.

HORRIBLE.

Overall,quite 50-50.

After dat,waited for the others like shit. Got some new frens there. :)

Went to Haig Rd to eat. Acip,Aden,Fahmi,Farhan,Hairul,Me,Jnab & Zuliana.

Went back together by MRT. Penat gile. So tetido la.

Met Hur Zaimah at Yew Tee. She got probs. N Bluurrgghh. Infront of me still can fite with her guy. Haiiyyyoo.. No matter wat,i LUV U DEAR. 7 years of bestie ya.

Reached home at 4pm.

QURAN

From juz now till now..

Still hearing his quran recitation..

Who who??

ABD AL-RAHMAN AS-SUDAIS.

Oh gosh,MERDU ABES nye.

N DARLINGS,jgn ingat aku asik online je..

tak blaja la ape la..

aku nga dgr cd kat comp nie.

only can play at comp.

BAHHHH..

WISH ME BEST OF LUCK.

Quran STE exam is only once,

Atleast i can do much better in my Arabic papers.

But not Quran.

Bcoz,

tomorrow is the only day.

to prove it all.

gudluck to me,

p.s: To acip n aden,u two promised me sumthing. DEAL rite?? CHOCLATES. heart ya two.

Wish me best of Luck ya

2005-09-04T21:25:00.000-07:00

Went to Geylang just now..

Sent 2 kain utk dibuat.. wehehe.. Pink n Gold! I loike. N mummy bought another cute baju for me. ALL FOR HARI RAYA.

Wallauu.. Lom puasa,da sebok nak raya.. haha

After dat,went to eat at Haig Rd.

Then went to Wak Tanjong Mosque.

Sat beside 'HIS' auntie. N i saw his family n relatives too. Urgghh *SAD*. im not part of dem anymore as me n him used to dream for.. *sad*. His dad n mama looked at me but i juz act foolishly. Muahaha.

Then went to Makam Habib Noh.

N there was where i 'JATOHKAN NIAT'.

N i asked all my relatives to doa for my Exams.

Especially to my grandpa.

HEART THEM LOTS.

For all,wish me luck ya..

Im so scared.. Urrggghhh...

N tomorrow. Im going to MWTI for my ORAL.

HELLPPP MEEE....

*scared*

2 more days to go.

2005-09-03T23:00:00.000-07:00

Time has passed really fast without me knowing dat my oral is another 2 days. Oh gosh,how i wish i could turn back the time. Im not completely prepared! Still wanna play sumone. N now,haaiiyyoo.. Still sit infront of dis comp. Bullshit. How i wish i could throw this comp out of my life.

NAH NAH. I cant live without computer. Muahaha..

Well,HI to all readers. Wanna noe how i was doing in skul yesterday?

Lets check it out..

Friday: As we noe dat yesterday was israk & mikraj memorable day. So we got one short ceramah by one ustaz. *Forgot wat his name is*. Dat ustaz was once became the student of irsyad. Wow.. How impressive! Used to study there n yesterday,went to his old skul to give ceramah.. aww~ how i wish i could be like him.

So yeah.. We were totally busy in getting ready for our oral. Dictionary here n there. Asked question to asatizah here and there. Quran recitation here and there..

Wallau.. Good irsyadians i must say.

At 2 till 4.30,only the 5 gals stayed behind at skul. The others went back home to take their things for qiyam. *sape suro siang2 tanak bwk.. blurghh*
N thanks to Zainab J for having a great listening pair of ears. Muahaha.. For wat?

For my Quran recitation.

Do u noe ABDUL RAHMAN AL-SUDAIS. The big Imam in Mecca? AWW~~~ how i wish i could meet him. I love the way he recites his quran recitation. So i think i must follow his song in reciting quran for my STE surah. N i did,alhamdulillah. :)

Reading quran can be so frustrated at times. kena pandai jaga tajwid. Tak tau tajwid,maka rosaklah bacaan nye itu..

As usual,study study study.

N dinner time? BBQ. Thanks principal. We heart u lotz.

N the gals,choosed me as the Camp Commandant for the gals. *Citotz uh u all*

Hahaha.. But nah.. For me, NO RULES IN CAMP. So i run my own camp.

Mr Muneer had gave instructions to me. He said: 'Luklu,make sure dat the light must b off by 11pm'.

Wat the heck. U think dat i wanna listen to u is it? haha.. No teacher in-charge for the gals. So went to Musollah n i said, 'Gals,lets have a party. we must switch off the light before 3 am'.

BAHAHAHAHAHA. Very TAK AMANAH. hahaha

Gals were having fun in the Musollah. Only 30+ of us. Sec 4 n 5. They rox to the core. Mp3 n hp here n there although the rule says 'NO HP OR WATSOEVER'.

HAHAHA..

Some of the gals were playing with the microphone. Some were chatting on the phone. Some were shouting like mad person. Some were eating KFC chicken. Some were laughing. Some were making noise. n dat was me. MUAHAHAHAHA.

One of the gal had switched off the light at 12.45am. So ok ok.. Lets b considerate. Tomorrow need to wake up early for qiyam.

N tada.. at 4 am.. jeng kejeng..

Commandant supposed to wake the others up. But Nah.. They woke me up. Buahaa.. Very bad.

N then,waited for the boys like shit. N wat the heck..

'STILL HAVENT WAKE UP YET.'

n we just continue with our qiyam.
Tahajud 6 rakaat.
Withir 3 rakaat.
N ustaz's doa made me cry. It touches my heart. *Sensitive abes na aku*

N went back to Musollah n BOOOMMM... continue my dream. Sleep sleep sleep.

At 7 am,i woke up. n i saw nobody in the musollah. Only me. wahahaha. So took a bathe n breakfast.

Reached Mussolah at 7.30am. N gez wat?

SLEEP AGAIN like nobody business. Woke up at 8.25am,5mins bfore the class started.

Reached home at 11+. So tired takle angkat. Saw my sis were still sleeping. N i woke her up. BUAHAHAHA.

Baring sekatil ngn dia walaupon cume single bed. Chit-chat with her for awhile. Laugh like mad person. Muahaha.

Then mamam n watched hindustan Cd for awhile. N at 1 pm till 8pm,NIKMAT ABES..

TIDO UH APE AGI. hahahahaha....

Ok crapz. I wanna study. I will update again tomorrow.

TATATA.
MUAHAHAHA

Totally busy

2005-09-01T23:30:00.000-07:00

Hey readers.. Sorry for not updating my blog.. Hmm.. almost a week ya?

Kinda bz with my school work.. N very lazy to update.. Muahaha..

Ok well,lets c how i was doing in these past few days..

Lets talk about last week..

Overnite at school for my qiyamullai. There was only 8 students from my class who joined the qiyam. Everything was fun especially with some Sec 4 ihsan n Sec 5 itqan joined the qiyam. Very memorable moments i must say. Two AMIRAH'S bad day. One was my larling Mira,n one was Sec 5's student. Lets see wat happened..

LALING MIRA: Became the Imam for Solat Asar. Very good gal indeed but.. *BACA SURAH KUAT2* muahahahaha.. darling,i juz cant stop myself from laughing. i tot dat u noe dat gal cant read aloud the surah although kite smua pompan.. hahaha.. But dat solat still tak batal,cuma makruh jek.. Next time dont do it again.. Muahahaha.. Very Funny.

ANOTHER AMIRAH: Secret. Try to find out by urself or ask her personally. VERY FUNNY. Tapi memalukan.. Muahahaha.. i juz cant stop from laughing..

Had nite self study at 8.45pm till 10.30pm.. 5 boys n 3 gals with only one ustaz. Study Study Study when suddenly one of the boys made me almost cry. FUCK. Just keep ur mouth shut ok. I noe dat im not dat clever. So wat?

I said to ustaz dat i was so hungry. N thanks ustaz for letting us out at as early 10.15pm.. n i found sumthing at the canteen.. Nasi with ayam masak lemak cili padi,fruits,cold drink and.. SAMBAL BELACAN.. ma favourite.. muahaha.. Eat like nobody bussiness.

Then went to Musollah. Baru nak start bebual n jengjengjeng. LIGHTS must off before 11pm.. Urrgghh.. Dat Miss Amnah was so strict. N ya,i slept peacefully. I was the only one who slept peacefully for the whole nite.. ape tdknye,perot kenyang,tdo mau nyenyak!! muahaha..

N next morning,woke up at 4 am. Went to toilet to brush my teeth n freshen up. Proceed to Dewan where we met the boys n ustazs. They started the qiyam n me,juzt sit one corner n hear my ustaz's quran recitation. I cant solat la dey. So taknak smbong tdo but nak dengar ustaz alaina nye baca quran. He became the Imam for qiyam. I LOIKE. merdu abes.

At 7 am,had our short exercise n ustaz alaina was the one who incharged for it. The ustazs n teachers were so cute!! N gez wat?? *EXERCISE DLM BAHASA ARAB LA* muahaha.. so cute..

-wahid isnin slasa ruba'- :)

Had our breakfast at 7.30-8.30am. I didnt bathe. Muahaha. Very lazy lor.. Continue to have of self-study till 10.30 n then off to home.

Reached home n BOOOOOOOOMMM.. *LOMPAT ATAS KATIL DAR* ngantok gile nye. Tak mandi,tak tukar baju tros tdo.. Fuhh!! Nikmat.

At 5.30 went out to Wdlds to study with my fren. Only the two of us at void deck. Wow. taught me very perfectly n i understand it alot. After dat,watched sepak takraw for a while n went to eat. reachd home at 10.30pm.. n BOOOMMMM *LOMPAT ATAS KATIL LAGI* very tired.

Spent my sunday at home. Bah!! Very boring but need to study study study.. Woohhoo..

Monday: Received our topics for STE oral. Fuuhh.. Teachers n students were very busy. Searched information. Discussion. N fite n misunderstanding btwn classmate has occured in class. I didnt noe y.. Gknye smua stress. Stress? Me too,but we have our own responsibility. The smarties didnt want to cooperate,all they noe was only BOOKS. bah.. Sumtimes i respect those smarties but sumtimes,i juz hate when it comes to dis situation.. it was all bcoz of teacher's day drama performance.. fite fite fite.. N so so so..

Tuesday: Finished skul at 11am bcoz teachers wanted to have lunch at hotel. Students need to leave shcool befor 11am bcoz there was no teacher in charge. Only those who were involved in the performance can stay at school.. n again.. stress n misunderstanding occured. hmmpphh.. N lastly,dgn kesabaran,smua da selesai at 4.30pm.. Wow.. So long huh..

Wednesday: Teachers day. Great performances. But i miss those abg2 who played kompang each time when there's special day. Still remember when they play kompang bila teachers smua klua.. Still remember the great nasyid LIVE performance. With LIVE instruments. EVERYHTING!!! I MISS MY OLD SENIORS!!! UWWEEEKKKS!!! mendakzzzzz...

Thursday: Juz now huh.. Woke up at 12pm.. Fuyyoo.. NIKMAT NIKMAT. Went out with my sisz n her frens to study at Lavender. N at 5pm,my 3 alj fren came down to dat place. Salute them. They r so good in NAHU.. Great! I LOIKE! :) n me,my siz n the 3 alj went to Beach Rd to have our dinner n zzzzzzzzzzz.. reached home at 10+..

SO TIRED.

hey sadrina,ive updated oredi.. very long summore.. muahahaha.. so dont complain. :D

N tomorrow,im having qiyamullai again..

Totally bz..

Oral is on monday.

OH NO NO..

im so scared!!

helpp meee....

N for rio,im so sorry dat i cant come down to ur bdae pit tomorrow. i noe dat u oll wanna meet me. But i juz cant make it.. u still can run the pit without me aitez. Study comes first. I need to go to qiyamullai to get some important informations. Plz understand me. Im so sorry.. especially to rio n fad.

STE..

dats my first priority.

understand me.

n ill respect u.

Sorry.

Memorable day for us

2005-08-25T19:00:00.000-07:00

'Now,i would like to announce dat there are 2 students have been suspended from school for a week',says Mdm Baizah.

The students were all puzzled to receive dat news... N the lecture started there.

Well,BGR is one common case dat basically happens in almost every school.

But this case was quite serious to the school because,

THE PUBLIC SAW IT.. THE PUBLIC SAW THEM.

Gez u shuld noe wat im trying to say ya.. Wearing school uniform is a big offence for couple to do dat. Public saw it n called school. How shame of that.

Had short syarahan by Ustaz Idham after dat.. He told us about the consequences for doing dat especially with school uniform.

HE WAS SO MAD.

HE WAS SO SAD.

HE WAS SO DISAPPOINTED.

Hey couple,u know wat??

U MADE MY USTAZ SHOUT.

N U MADE MY USTAZ CRY.

Some of the students were crying just now..

bcoz of wat?

USTAZ'S SYARAHAN.

It really touches our heart.

n ustaz's doa was the most touching part of all.. bcoz..

USTAZ CRIED TOO.

HE CRIED INFRONT OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL.

Tersekat2 baca doa smbil tersedu-sedan.

HEY,

i was so damn sad to see my ustaz in dat situation.

He loves his students.

He wants his students to change.

N for the couple,

okok.. Lets not mention names ok.

I noe them n there'r my frens,so-called juniors.

I care for them.

U noe dat some of ur frens were all crying bcoz of the two of u?

EVERYBODY MAKES MISTAKE.

NOBODY PERFECT.

Me,myself is not perfect at all.

But y must in school uniform?

Hmpph..

Dont do it again plz.

Skola da 3 tahun tak buat benda suspend nie smua tau.

Plz darlingz,change ok..

Kan da besar,pandai2 jaga diri,jgn smpai kena tangkap la..

IRSYAD IS WHERE WE BELONG.

CHILDHOOD LIFE..

TILL..

TEENS LIFE..

n the moral of the story is,

RESPECT UR SCHOOL UNIFORM.

Okok.. Lets change to another topic..

Well,tomorrow im gonna stay at school till saturday.

N this is the time table for the programme:

(After schhol hous)

4.30pm-5pm: Assemble & Asar prayer.

5.00pm-5.15pm: Briefing Rules & Regulations.

5.15pm-6.00pm: Exercise & games.

6.00pm-7.00pm: Dinner/Bathe.

7.00pm-7.30pm: Magrib prayer.

7.30pm-8.00pm: Tazkirah & Quran Recitation.

8.00pm-8.45pm: Isyak prayer.

9.00pm-10.30pm: Self-study at class.

11pm-4am: Sleep.

4.30am-5.45am: Qiyamullai.

5.45am-6.15: Subuh Prayer & Tazkirah.

6.15am-7.15am: Excercise.

7.15am-8.15am: Breakfast.

8.30-10.30: Self-study at class.

10.45: Dismissal & Debrief.

It is not compulsory but its good to have self-study with frens at school rather than at home rite?

n qiyammulai will b the great one for us.

n ustaz alaina is the one who will lead us..

WOOHHOO.. I loike!

Well,ive written too long.

I will write again once i reach home on Saturday.

To my taggers,keep dat tag-thingy still on aitez.

Plz guys..

2005-08-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

hey hey.. thanks alot to my dearest frens who will always be there for me.. n taggers.. so sweet of u guys.. thanks alot..

Well,school life has been great for me. Meet up my friends at school and they really rox to the core. wanna noe y? SIMPLE. bcoz they brighten up my days. Smile & laugh are my best medicine of all. I love to see those smiles bcoz dat is where i live,to make people happy with my jokes,my funny look n bla bla bla.. yes dearies,u will always have me as ur clown :)

Next is about my beloved class.

I miss my sec 4 ihsans' united class. I noe dat im not part of them now but i used to b one. Hey,wat happened?? Why i see so many groups here n there? Common gals,if there any probs dat need to b settled,plz settle it soon. U noe wat?

IM SO SAD TO SEE ALL THIS HAPPENED.

Still remember those times when we're once united as a class? SEC 2 IHSAN 2003.

I used to b one,n u all used to b one to. Only dat i have left SEC 4 IHSAN now for my STE.

Hey boys n gals,i really miss those moments when we laugh,eat,talk,gossip TOGETHER.

We fight n THEN we cry n THEN we reunite again.

Boys and gals,u noe how much i love u guys. We've been thru ups & downs together.

GUYS,

how i wish i could see u guys together again as we used to be.

Still remember those memories?

Gals fite with Boys.

But how it was ended? We settled it by face to face rite? *how sweet of dat*

N wats about dat poster of 'UNITED FOR ALL'?

I still remember dat me & mira were the one who made dat poster.

*semangat*

I LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH.

PLZ. settle it.

4 more weeks to go darlings.

n u all will gonna say bye-bye to each other very soon.

Perhaps,ME.

u all gonna leave me soon.

Atleast if it is not for me,

think for the friendship.

4 more weeks to go bfore u all leave the school.

Enjoy ur last few weeks in irsyad.

We've been friends from primary school life. 10 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP.

n now.. u all gonna say goodbye..

PLZ THINK OF IT.

i love u guys.

n im so sad to c u guys like dis.

Give dat united class back to me once again plz..

:'(

Im so damn useless

2005-08-22T19:15:00.000-07:00

Today onwards till STE(dat will b on 26Sept),there will b no academic lessons for my class. All the free periods are occupied by Arabic lesson or self study.

Senang kata,FOR 5 WEEKS NI AKU TAK BUKAK ACADEMIC BOOKS. ONLY ARABIC SUBJECTS ONLY.

So,Goodbye to Physics,Chems,Geo,Eng,Malay & Maths...

I WAS SO DAMN STRESSED UP!!! SHIT SHIT SHIT!!! So many things to b done! urrgghh!!

STRESS KEBABAI PUNYE!!!!!

N for dat someone,i cant always b there for u when u need me. u noe i was so fuckingly mad at ur attitude? am i just ur rubbish??? FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

N i dont noe y.. y dis feelings suddenly started to change. Im sad. Im so lonely.

Yes,THE FACT IS DAT,IM SO LONELY.

I DONT KNOW Y. MAYBE BCOZ I JUST CANT ACCEPT THE FATE DAT I LIVE WITHOUT HIM BY MY SIDE.

WHERE IS MY BABY?

the one who used to guide me.

the one who used to protect me.

the one who used to sacrifice everything for me.

the one who used to care for me.

the one who used to hug me.

the one who used to kiss me.

the one who used to give me his support.

the one who used to get angry wheneva i am stubborn.

the one who used to get angry wheneva i fail for my test.

the one who used to get angry wheneva i skip my meals.

the one who used to make dat silly jokes.

the one who used to make me cry.

the one who used to make me laugh like crazy person.

the one who used to b there when i need a listening pair of ears.

the one who used to be there when i need someone to comfort me.

the one who used to be my everything.

2 YEARS OF RELATIONSHIP.

UPS & DOWNS-WE USED TO B TOGETHER.

N HE NOES DAT I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HIM.

N I NOE DAT HE CANT LIVE WITHOUT ME.

I JUST CANT GET U OUT OF MY MIND.

IM SO DAMN MISSING U.

HOW R U? HAVE U EATEN UR MEALS? WHERE R U? DONT U MISS ME??

OH GOD.

IM CRYING RITE NOW.

I DONT KNOE.

WATS WRONG WIF ME.

IM SO SAD & LONELY.

I MISS THOSE TIMES WHEN HE CALLS N CHECKS ON ME.

I MISS THOSE TIMES WHEN HE MAKES LAME JOKES.

I MISS THOSE TIMES WHEN WE ALMOST SPEND OUR TIME TOGETHER.

IM SO FUCKINGLY USELESS!!!!!!

I NOE DAT I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HIM YET IVE DONE DIZ DECISIONS.

Smua da jadi kenangan.. memang bukan senang nak adapt ngn hidup nie.. YES! mmg susah! LUKLU MMG HYPOCRITE! DEPAN JE SENYUM TAPI DLM HATI MENANGIS.

i wanna b strong.

i want him to change.

i dont wanna hurt him so much. he deserves the better one.

i juz dont wanna cry sumone.

the fact is dat,IM STILL LOVING HIM.

but i dont wan him back.

im sorry..

Couple dat used to b so sweet n true.

Couple dat used to be so naughty. They enjoy each other very much.

His last bdae celebration at Pizza Hut.

IM USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN ME!!!!! *CRYING*

Goodbye to u

2005-08-21T10:45:00.000-07:00

Im watching TGIF rite now..

oh gosh! Adi Rahman is so damn handsome!! urrgghh!! sweet face somemore.. haha

Yesterday slept at 2 am.. See la.. Too addicted to the computer. Haiyyoo..

SAY NO TO COMPUTER PLZ!!

Yesterday,someone called me.. gez who gez who?? he is my bestie! NAMLUN! u was such a silly boy who will always make me go crazy. haha. Well,he called me and as usual,talk,gossips n finally,LAUGH!! hahaha.. Fun having him by my side. Too bad dat he's staying at Bedok.. Wallau! So far liox. It was almost a year since we last met. He promised me one thing..

HE GONNA BUY DENDENG FOR ME ON FASTING MONTH! so,plz keep dat promise aitez.. haha

After dat,watched Bujang Lapok wif my parents. We laughed alot! Hahaha.. Best story of all.. Dat is how i release my tension..

Do u feel frustated? Angry? Sad? Stress? Infuriated? See how i teach u to get rid of dat...

Watch P.Ramlee's story n laugh.. laugh.. laugh.. till u cry! Cry of joy la dey!! n tada!! i bet dat u will change to one kind of HAPPY-GO-LUCKY n SIOW-TING-TONG person.. Try it babe!

N then,switched on computer n scanned new pics to the computer..

Pictures of me n my relatives went to KL last 2 weeks.. Check it out aitez..

click here for photos

I felt something missing.. Wat is it? No,not missing.. but awkward.. Hmm..

SPEND MY WEEKENDS ALL DAY AT HOME.

I used to go out dis two days just to enjoy wif him. I occupied my times wif him. But those times had actually past. Only the memories still there in my heart. Ya,he may hates me n i may hate him. Wateva happens,id always cherish the moment we've spent together.

Im not dat strong. But i should b strong to face the fact. Where ever u r,wat eva u r doing,i will always pray the best for u..

i am a bad gal.

Left him all alone by himself.

We used to promise dat we'll always b foreva.

im sorry.

ive got my own reasons.

i hope u understand.

im sorry.

i dont wanna cry sumone.

it hurts me alot.

bcoz i believe.

dat im not live in this world just to cry.

i want happiness.

gdbye.

STE is my first PRIORITY

2005-08-19T23:59:00.000-07:00

Not much to say about today.. Only that i am totally busy preparing for my upcoming STE..

Okok.. Story for today.. Hmm.. Lets see how i was doing in school..

I was forced by apiz to go to school at as early 6.30am at Wdlds.. But how silly of him for not telling me dat he had 'LAST MINUTE' fever.. n bluurgh.. He did'nt come to school.. fuh.. Almost 1 year we havent meet at all.. All due to my big mistakes.. aarrgghh!!

Reached school at 7.10am.. Had Tillawah n they gave me an oppurtunity to read Surah Yassin all by myself.. Cool.. N they said that I have that potential to score well for my STE Oral.. Thanks dearies.. *kembang seminit*

Wat else huh.. Oh ya.. Had my Solat Jumaat at School and the Khutbah was all about Fasting Month.. *quite boring* wat to do.. still need to listen.. And i just love this part.. When Ustaz Alaina(ustaz from Madinah) became the Imam of the Solat jumaat... Hold on..

URRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!

I just love it alot!! *sedap gilenye.. syahdu abes.. totally mcm kat madinah*.. Salute uh..

N this was the slack part of all.. My class is the only class that need to stay back after solat till 3.30 on every friday.. The other classes can go home at 2pm.. wanna noe y?

STUDY OFCOURSE..

TEST OFCOURSE..

blurrgghh.. nevermind.. Sacrifice is the best way of all.. N u all wanna noe wat??

I WAS SELECTED TO BE USTAZ ALAINA'S 'ANAK ANGKAT' FROM NOW ON TILL STE..

He needs to guide me & Jnab along the preparations for STE.. hahaha.. *takmo jealous k*

Reached home at 4.30.. rehat,mandi,solat,mamam BOOMM study time!!

Switched on computer at 10.30pm then.. jengjeng.. MSN!!! Chat wif lots of people!! Sadrina,Ria,Rina.. urrgghh!! Cannot stop mah.. Miss them lotz.. Chat with Huda just now n seems that she had a problem.. Hey Huda,ive tried my really best to cheer u up.. So plz,cool down n just forget about the problem.. Problems will surely have its own solution to settle.. Plz.. Cheer up will ya? Love u lots..

Mancis msged me just now n asked me to watch Gerak Khas at Suria.. He asked me to guess who(in the story) totally looks like him.. I gez n gez.. n wanna noe wat's the ans?

NASHA AZIZ..

haahahahahahaha..

Silly boy! :P

Okok.. Enough for today.. wanna sleep n wake up at early in the morning to start memorising my Tauhid..

TIME TABLE FOR TOMORROW: Focus n memorise the whole book of Tauhid..

COUNTDOWN: 37 more days to go

Life must go on..

2005-08-18T19:20:00.000-07:00

Read my taggers' advice.. Im so sorry for what ive done.. I have thrown my friends just like that only because of a guy..

People will think that I was bad.. People will think that i was utterly unreasonable.. The main reason was 'Im not that strong'.. I just cant stand to see people points their finger on me.. He accused me of the reason why he started to change.. It was because i left him.. From one nice guy changed to one HELL guy.. he went to club,drink n etc. I felt so bad at that time. I think it over n over again.. I wanted to change him.. I wanted not to be accused.. Unfortunately,ive made up my mind to patch n the problems started to occur..

I LEFT MY BOY FRIENDS.. I LEFT MY FREEDOM.. I LEFT ALMOST EVERYTHING..

All i need was just to be with him.. Ive sacrified alot because of him.. Ive changed alot because of him.. Ive listened everything to his instruction.. How i wish i could be with him forever.. How i wish he can change.. But it was just a dream dat will never come true.. He,the same guy as it was 2 years back..

HE WILL NEVER CHANGE HIS ATTITUDE.

He never shows any changes in him after 8 months i have given him that chance again n again..

I was so stressed up.. He cant simply understand me.. He just loves to make me cry.. He loves to follow his ego attitude rather than my situation.. N wat i got for my prelims? BAD!

I was the one who asked for a break up.. But before he left me,he said this: 'I knoe that u will regret one day. N if u come back to me n ask for a patch,i will say this to u: THIS HEART HAS CLOSED FOR U'

N u noe what my heart says? Me too.. i dont wanna u back.. 'I dont give a damn about what u say about that.. Im not gonna cry about some stupid guy.. A guy who thinks he is all that..'

I wanna end it all.. Maybe i was wrong.. Oh god,ive made so many mistakes..

For my friends out there,i am so sorry to let all of u down.. I was the one to b blamed.. Yes,im not perfect..

Sometimes i feel that im alone.. So alone.. Sumtimes i think that i have no one in my life..

But i started to realise..

I STILL HAVE MANY GREAT FRIENDS THAT WILL ALWAYS GIVE ME THEIR SUPPORT..

I love u all..

Im so sorry..

Thanks for being there..

Im back..

2005-08-17T21:15:00.000-07:00

Hey.. Atlast im back to blog.. To everybody,i juz wanna say..
HII!!! miss u guys lotz.. Haiz.. Time has passed really fast without me knowing dat STE is around the corner.. 5 more weeks to go.. gagaga..

Ok.. Lets see how i was doing in these few days..
Life without a guy is one kind of FREEDOM to the core..
So sorry Ahmad.. It was not my fault but it was your fault.. U cant prove to me that u can change..
I just cant stand ur ego,jealous,bad-tempered attitude.. u noe how i have sacrified alot just bcoz of u? I hate ur vulgarities n etc.. I just hate for being treated like dogs!!! So sorry.. There is no other solution besides OVER..

Now,im all alone. Ive failed in relationship again.. I had enough..
Now i wanna focus on my study n enjoy my life..
I just hope dat my exs will succed in their life.. ex-s?? ? ya,i had 2 ex-s..
Both in 2 years relationship..
N it was all ended to nothing but a broken heart..
I am so glad that my first ex is now happy with my friend.. n there's no grudges between us..
We're classmates indeed.. Hope they will b happy together n forever.. :)

About today..
Ive done one big mistake.. haiyo yo..
Ive revealed one big secret to my teacher..
It was supposed to be secret..
But how silly of me for uttering the words out..
OKok.. The story begins like this..
We were discussing about our STE planning with ustazah at the class..
N suddenly we talked about Teachers day..
n jeng jeng jeng.. Suddenly i said: 'kite nak uat drama utk ustazah tau'
n the whole class was stunned n turned at me.. Then the class was BOOOMM!!
DORG MARAH AKU!! urrgghh.... Sorryy.. I know dat im clumsy.. Seettoopiidd..
After dat,LUKLU MAJOK oitz.. n then the whole class said:

I LOVE U LUKLU

awwww~~~ so sweett.. i lup u oll too.. n aden is an irritating person who loves to tease me.. i hate u uh siakenz!! hahaha..no no.. wateva happens,aden still be my fren n partner in crime.. hiak hiak.. *diam dar den,ku campak ko pat longkang besar aru tau* :)

So there's nothing special for today.. only dat huda was scared when it was raining just now.. haha.. cute huda..

okok.. It is time for me to study.. i noe dat my blog looks kinda simple or wat.. Its ok.. i will change the skin after STE is over..

Goodnite readers.. Love u oll.. Dont forget to tag aitez...